My Baptism

So while I was at this beach outside of Tampa, Fl I met a strange man playing the ukele… He looked rough and homeless, so I asked him; do you need any food…. He aaked me; why do you assume I’m homeless?

I have Christ and with this view everyday I am wealthier then Kings. The ocean gives me everything I need, and I have want for nothing… How then with such fulfillment can I be homeless. God is my home.

The man began to play his ukele singing a joyful song about god creating Florida. Intermittently stopping to preach seemingly whatever random thing came to his mind.. and I was bewilderd but he was clearly a prophet but I listened and enjoyed everything he had to say. But his words were true, he was a complete genius yet perhaps crazy.. a Prophet to be sure

Then he told me, the holy spirit is so strong in me, yet I have never been baptized…. (Which is true, but I never told him or really anyone that)…. Then he asked if I would like to be baptized by him..

and now I am finally baptised by a proper prophet of the Lord ๐Ÿ˜€

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I do not believe I fear death

Well im not there yet, but in some ways I hate this world so much I think I would see it as a release from my comfortable prison. In other ways, there are so much I still have to do, I’d hate to leave just now. I live for my son now, and I am sorely afraid for his future in this hell and he needs so much preparation and strength. I live to build him a worthy legacy, so he can take care of himself, hopefully even in the darkest times. I’m not entirely sure what I am doing, but I know to die tomorrow would throw all that I’ve done so far away.

if the police came tomorrow to bring me to an execution, I suppose I wouldn’t have much choice then. And In my death he would know all i’ve taught him about government was true. I suppose they would have to kill him too. Something tells me they wouldn’t as there is age limits on death penalties, and therefore I wouldn’t worry at all about him. With any luck he would find the underground resistance movement and grow up learning how to avenge my death. I know in such a case I would only die for God. And I know he promises me the greatest riches in heaven for such a death. I would consider it an honor and aspiration…โ€ฆ Yet stepping back I realize what a grim thought all of that is indeed. ๐Ÿ˜›

I am just ranting really, but I think im less afraid of death then I am afraid of it. I guess when actually faced with it I may move further off the fence one way or another. Better it be in Gods name then an old man sick with Alzheimer’s. Come quickly oh lord.

 

To You

You always said you wanted me to write about you on my blog – And the brief things I did write that involved you, were not very pleasant. Well there is a reason they were not pleasant, even though I tried to paint you in the best of light. You were down right abusive and I can only write from experience. I didnt realize just how abusive you were until since you’ve been gone a year later. On one hand I miss you, on the other I search for a reason to miss you and can not find one. You controlled and manipulated me then called it “love”. You argued constantly over nothing, then called it “fighting for my love”. Today I know its actually called Gaslighting – but anyway… I know in my mind and my heart I only miss you because of the damage you left inside of me. I am not angry, and I never was but I am healing from you.

You always wanted me to write specifically about you, and so here is your article.

Harvest Moon: Light of Hope – Bluebird

List of actions i did to summon Blue Bird:
1) Speak with Michael (small boy with a dog) to get clue โ„–1 (you need to have Livestock Building);
2) Speak with Wizard (the main one, not apprentices) to get clue โ„–2;
3) Speak to Gabriel (he often is inside your barn);
4) Build Windmill;
5) Make Delicious Food (2x flour = 3x Wheat required);
6) Go to the beach at sunny day at night (6pm+), but dont forget to speak with Gabriel once more;
7) Calvin and Blossom (spirits) should be already unlocked;
8) Cutscene at the beach.

Harvest Moon: Light of Hope – Ore Guide

Iron: 1-10, 26-35, 41-46, 61-70.
Bronze: 6-10, 26-40, 46-60, 71-80
Silver: 6-10, 21-40, 46-60, 71-80
Gold: 6-10, 21-35, 61-80, 91-100
Mithril: 46-60, 71-80, 91-100
Orichalcum: 51-60, 71-80, 91-100
Adamantite:61-65, 71-75, 91-100
Agate: 1-15, 61-70
Jade: 1-5, 66-70
Flourite: 6-15, 61-65
Opal: 6-10, 61-65
Crystal: 11-15, 61-70
Peridot: 16-25, 36-45, 86-90
Moonstone: 11-25, 36-40, 85-90
Onyx: 11-15, 21-25, 36-45, 86-90
Topaz: 11-15, 21-25, 41-45, 81-90
Amethyst: 16-20, 46-45, 81-90
Ruby: 26-35, 41-45, 51-55, 81-90, 96-100
Emerald: 31-35,41-45, 56-60, 81-90
Sapphire: 26-30, 41-45, 81-90
Diamond: 41-45, 56-65, 76-100
Pink Diamond: 71-100
Soul Gem:86-100

81-90: Gems. Lots and lots of gems
61-70: lots of agate, jade, crystal, opal and flourite.
61-70: TONS of iron

*These are just what i have found from going level to level a few times. I’m sure there are rare drops, but these are the most common.

On Catholicism

Isnt it strange there are no popes in the early church from 1 ad to 400 ad?

Isnt it odd, the first pope was Constantine, a roman roman emporer?

Might it also be strange the only early church that called themseleves “catholic” was the church in Italy?

Greece, syria, Ethiopia and india had no affiliation yet were also founded by the apostles. (Thoigh greece did for a short time until the byzantium empire branched off from rome. but even then they were seperate churches… anyway).

so whats historic about catholicism is they have historically always been control freaks as well as idolatrous teaching everything false – including the lie they were the first and only church ๐Ÿ˜› but even more so the lie the protestant bible comes from their church.

When a catholic is confronted with this fact, they immediately reach for Ireneous, Ignatius or Clement – And assuredly Peter. To which…

Ireneous was a bishop not a pope… acting in accordance to the hierarchy structure in the book of acts like any other bishop. (Ignatius and clement also bishops)

The first pope was Constantine, and he came 300 years after ireneous… peter was an apostle and never even himself was called “pope”. The church did and it took them 400 years to even come up with the title.

In short the catholic church has no historical basis other then it’s been around a long time. Jesus on his ministries in israel is truely the only original church.

Judge not least thee be Judged… A parable

Some people tell me that they are scandalized because they see many things wrong in the Church. I tell them that if you ask a fly, โ€œAre there any flowers in this area?โ€ it will say, โ€œI donโ€™t know about flowers, but over there in that heap of rubbish you can find all the filth you want.โ€ And it will go on to list all the unclean things it has been to.

Now, if you ask a honeybee, โ€œHave you seen any unclean things in this area?โ€ it will reply, โ€œUnclean things? No, I have not seen any; the place here is full of the most fragrant flowers.โ€ And it will go on to name all the flowers of the garden or the meadow.

You see, the fly only knows where the unclean things are, while the honeybee knows where the beautiful iris or hyacinth is.

As I have come to understand, some people resemble the honeybee and some resemble the fly. Those who resemble the fly seek to find evil in every circumstance and are preoccupied with it; they see no good anywhere. But those who resemble the honeybee only see the good in everything they see. The stupid person thinks stupidly and takes everything in the wrong way, whereas the person who has good thoughts, no matter what he sees, no matter what you tell him, maintains a positive and good thought.

+ St. Paisios of Mt. Athos, โ€œGood and Evil Thoughts,โ€ Spiritual Counsels III: Spiritual Struggle

Louisiana gardening by the month: What to plant and when to plant it for a gorgeous garden all year long

January: Vegetables to plant in January include beets, broccoli, cabbage, carrots, cauliflower, celery, Chinese cabbage, collards, garden peas, Irish potatoes, kale, kohlrabi, leeks, lettuce, mustard, radishes, rutabagas, spinach, Swiss chard and turnips. Plant seeds of tomatoes, peppers and eggplants in small pots in greenhouses or under lights indoors.

Keep the old, spent flowers of cool-season bedding plants picked off to encourage continued blooming and fertilize if needed.

Repeat-flowering roses generally are pruned twice a year — in late January to early February and again in late August to early September. Hold off pruning cold-damaged woody tropicals, such as hibiscus and angel trumpet, until spring. At that time, look for new growth and then cut the plant back appropriately.

February: Early this month, plant cool-season vegetables, such as beets, broccoli, cabbage, carrots, cauliflower, Swiss chard, collards, lettuce, mustard, potatoes, radishes, spinach, snow peas and turnips. Plant seeds of tomatoes, peppers and eggplants in greenhouses or under lights indoors.

Many hardy fruit trees, such as peach, pear, plum and apple, should be pruned in February. There often is a specific way to prune your tree, depending on the type you’re growing, so do some research before pruning.

Plant hardy trees, shrubs and ground covers in the landscape now. This will give them time to make some root growth before the heat of summer.

Fertilize young shade trees and fruit trees.

Clip ground covers back before new growth appears to remove unattractive foliage, rejuvenate the plants and control growth.

March: Begin planting warm-season vegetables, such as tomatoes and bell peppers (use transplants for these two), cucumbers, corn, snap beans, mirliton and squash. Protect tender vegetables in the event of a late freeze.

Begin to plant warm-season bedding plants, such as angelonia, marigolds, zinnias, blue daze, pentas, celosia, salvia, portulaca, purslane, melampodium and others.

Fertilize roses and other shrubs now. Purchase roses in containers and plant this month.

Warmer temperatures and active growth make watering increasingly important if regular rainfall does not occur. New plantings need the most attention, since they are more vulnerable until they have a chance to grow a strong root system.

Fertilize lawns the last week in March or early April using a lawn fertilizer or weed and feed (fertilizer plus weed killer).

April: Excellent hot weather vegetables that can be planted now include cucuzzi, cushaw, eggplants, peanuts, pumpkins, Southern peas, hot peppers, lima beans, luffa gourds, okra and yard-long beans. Continue to plant transplants of tomatoes and peppers and seeds of snap beans, squash and cucumbers.

If you need to, prune spring-flowering shrubs, such as spirea, viburnum, quince, azalea, camellia, jasmine and mock orange as soon as they finish flowering.

Evaluate your flower beds of cool-season bedding plants carefully in late April and early May. When they are past their prime, pull them up and throw them in your compost pile. Then prepare the bed and plant warm-season bedding plants that will thrive here in summer.

Plant caladium tubers or started plants in shady areas this month.

May: Excellent hot-weather vegetables that can be planted now include amaranth, cantaloupe, cucuzzi, cushaw, eggplant, Malabar spinach, edible soybean, peanuts, pumpkin, Southern peas, hot peppers, lima beans, luffa gourd, mirliton, okra, sweet potato, watermelon and yard-long beans.

Remove developing seed pods from s Louisiana iris, agapanthus and amaryllis when they finish blooming.

Early May is the last chance to apply many broadleaf weed killers and weed-and-feed products to the lawn before the weather gets too hot.

May is one of the busiest months in the flower garden. As cool-season annuals become unattractive, the beds need to be cleaned out and replanted with warm-season annuals for summer color.

June: Heat-tolerant vegetables that can be planted in June include collards, cucuzzi, eggplant, hot pepper, luffa, Malabar spinach, mirliton, New Zealand spinach, okra, peanut, pumpkin, Southern peas, edible soybeans, squash and sweet potato (use “slips” or rooted cuttings).

Herbs that may be planted now include basil, perilla, sesame, mints, oregano, lemon balm, lemon verbena, mountain mint, Mexican oregano, garlic chives, rosemary, bergamot, hyssop, Mexican tarragon, yarrow, burnet and rue.

A second application of fertilizer may be made to lawns in June or July.
June ushers in the hurricane season. Well before the possibility of a hurricane, shade trees in the landscape should be checked carefully to make sure they are in good shape.

Keep up with jobs such as weeding, mulching and staking plants. It’s far easier to do these jobs a little at a time than to get behind and have to make a major effort.
Pest problems are all too common in summer flower and vegetable gardens. When using any pesticide read and follow label directions carefully. When applying pesticides to food crops, observe the waiting period between treatment and harvest. Always make sure you have diagnosed a problem properly before treatment.

July: Vegetables to plant in July include cantaloupes, collards, cucumbers, luffa, okra, pumpkins, Southern peas, shallots, squashes and watermelons. In addition, you can plant seeds to grow transplants of broccoli, Brussels sprouts, cabbage, cauliflower, Chinese cabbage, peppers and tomatoes.

Finish pruning spring-flowering shrubs, such as azaleas and spirea, in early July.
Sharpen your lawnmower blades. They generally will have become dull by this time of the year.

Keep up with weeding. Weeds can get out of hand very fast. Use mulches wherever possible.

Plant palms through August, since they establish best when planted into warm soil. Select hardier palms, such as cabbage palm, windmill palm, jelly palm, Mediterranean fan palm, Canary Island date palm, palmetto and needle palm. Keep them well-watered during their period of getting established.

August: Vegetables to plant in August include broccoli, Brussels sprouts, bunching onions, cabbage, cauliflower, Swiss chard, Chinese cabbage, collards, cucumbers, lima beans, mustard, snap beans, Southern peas, shallots, squash and turnips. Plant transplants of bell peppers, tomatoes and eggplants by mid-August.

For late-summer color, continue to plant heat-tolerant bedding plants available at local nurseries and garden centers.

Prune everblooming roses back about one-third their height in late August or early September. This pruning prepares the roses for the outstanding blooming season in October, November and early December.

Hot, dry weather is ideal for chinch bug damage to show up on lawns, particularly in St. Augustine grass. Treat if needed with lawn insecticides.

Begin to order spring-flowering bulbs from catalogs for delivery in October.

If you need to, dig and divide Louisiana irises, acanthus, Easter lilies and calla lilies this month and in September.

September: In early September, plant transplants of tomatoes or peppers and seeds of squash, cucumbers, bush snap beans and bush lima beans. Transplants or seeds of broccoli, cauliflower and cabbage can be planted throughout the month as can seeds of Brussels sprouts, Chinese cabbage, collards, mustard, kale, kohlrabi and turnips. Sets (small bulbs) of shallots and bunching onions also may be planted this month, and small whole Irish potatoes can be planted 4 inches deep spaced 12 inches apart in well-prepared beds.

Mulches may have decayed and thinned over the summer. Replenish mulch layers with fresh material to maintain about a 2- to 3-inch thickness.

The hurricane season is kicking into high gear now, and if you haven’t already done so, it’s time to look over your landscape to prepare.

Avoid pruning spring-flowering shrubs and gardenias, hydrangeas, sasanquas and camellias. They have already set their flower buds, and any pruning now will reduce blooming.

From now through the winter, do not apply fertilizers containing nitrogen to most landscape plants. Fertilizing trees, shrubs, lawns and ground covers with nitrogen in the fall can reduce the hardiness of some plants and promote winter injury.

October: Vegetables to plant this month include beets, broccoli (transplants), Brussels sprouts (transplants), cabbage, carrots, cauliflower (transplants), celery, Chinese cabbage, collards, endive, green peas, snow peas, edible podded peas, garlic, kohlrabi, lettuce, mustard, onions (seed or sets), rutabaga, shallots (sets), parsley, radishes, spinach, Swiss chard, turnips and kale.

Now through February, dig, divide and transplant perennials, such as daylilies, ajuga, daisy, rudbeckia, coreopsis, yarrow and others.

October weather can be dry, so water plantings as needed. Pay special attention to any newly planted areas.

Dig and store your caladium tubers in early October. Don’t wait for the foliage to die down and disappear, since that will make it harder to find the tubers.

Water in newly planted cool-season bedding plants with a half-strength fertilizer solution to get them off to a good start.

November: Vegetables to plant in November include beet, cabbage, carrot, celery, collard, garlic, kale, kohlrabi, leek, lettuce, mustard, onion, rutabaga, shallot, spinach, Swiss chard and turnip.

Herbs to plant include borage, celery, chervil, cilantro, dill, fennel, parsley, chives, garlic chives, lemon balm, Mexican tarragon, mints, oregano, rosemary, sage, sorrel, marjoram, thyme, French tarragon, feverfew, lavender and chamomile.

This is the beginning of the prime planting season for hardy trees, shrubs, vines and ground covers.

Finish planting most spring-flowering bulbs this month. Buy tulips and hyacinths by mid-November, and refrigerate them for at least six weeks before planting them in late December or early January.

Plant cool-season bedding plants, such as pansy, viola, alyssum, dianthus, calendula, snapdragon, diascia, nemesia, dusty miller, ornamental cabbage and kale, petunias and many more.

As leaves fall from trees, collect them, put them in your compost pile or use them as mulch.

December: Vegetables to plant in December include beets, cabbage, carrots, celery, Chinese cabbage, collards, kale, kohlrabi, lettuce, mustard, onions, radish, rutabaga, shallots, spinach, Swiss chard and turnips.

Anticipating freezing temperatures, evaluate tropical plants in your landscape. Decide what needs to be protected and decide how you will do it (bring inside, cover). Have materials on hand.

If any gardening tools or equipment need repair, now is a good time to get that done so everything is in good shape next spring.

Prune off any freeze damage caused to herbaceous tropical plants, such as gingers, philodendrons, cannas and others. Place a 4- to 6-inch layer of mulch, such as pine straw, around the base of the plants to protect the roots and rhizomes.

Originally posted at: https://www.google.com/amp/s/articles.nola.com/homegarden/index.ssf/2016/01/your_yearly_gardening_calendar.amp

The Earth is Flat

The belief the earth is flat is becoming rather epidemic. Noticeably this idea posses of all the science worshipping secularists- and then there’s me. I’ve examined the evidence of a flat earth and honestly found all the arguement against it left wanting. At the end of the day I realise, it wouldn’t make 1 ounce of difference to me or my life if it were flat or round. Seeing as it irriates athiests so much, well…

It’s like this:

I am a flat earther! 

It’s not because I hate science, rather the contrary. Science is about exploring, asking questions, getting messy and even making mistakes. There is no such thing as “this is so and that is that” in science. It’s about asking the hard and big questions. Frankly I’m disappointed in the round earthers contentions for a round earth – it seems they’ve grown too comfortable. Not only comfortable, but a lot of them are closed minded jerks, so I’m picking the team with the people I can be cool with. A shake up is certainly needed. 

Dear Elijah, This is how I met your mother…ย 

Let me start by saying, At the time of this writing you are 2 years old. I havnt even met you yet, but i just dropped your mother off so she can go to truck driving school. I am at a Werner drop yard down in Greensboro, NC talking to her on the phone as she makes her way back to your grandmother’s house in Hampton, VA…. But this letter is about how I met her and what we did when we first met. Someday you’ll read this, and hopefully you will love it. 

Where to begin… 

I suppose I should just start at the begining really. I was a rookie truck driver fresh out of training amd ready to go anywhere the road took me. That’s when my coolant began leaking at a truck stop in pensylvannia. It clearly needed repair, but my intuition told me to wait… and so I did. I received a load that sent me to Columbus Ohio, to which I thought I would get the truck fixed there… when I got there 2 things happened. First, the coolant wasn’t leaking at all anymore when I got to the mechanic. Second, I was given a very irregular load to South Boston, VA… it was a completely empty trailer, family dollar for some reason paid to have sealed and a BOL to be transferred some 800 miles away… to which never happens, and I Judy can’t help thinking it was a mix of paper work that brought me to meet her. … anyway… I get to South Boston, VA and spent the night at a truck stop. When I awoke the coolant was leaking all over the ground…. so I called dispatch to find a mechanic. They told me, the nearest place to get it fixed within 400 miles was a town called Greensboro, NC. So I stoped the load off and as fast as I could I drove down to the peterbuilt dealer. 

I got there on monday July 3rd at 11 am but the mechanic was closed for the 4th… they told me it needs a new radiator, and it will take time, the soonest they could get me out was Wensday afternoon…. BUT they had a hotel right next door with a pool and it was all on my company’s dime… so being stranded for repairs wasn’t so bad.  

Now that the Context is set… 



I met your mom on Facebook. She was in a dating group that I was in and she sent me a random friend request. This particular group had a lot of foreign girls in it, I thought she was from a whole different place… and yet what the heck.. I said hi to her anyway. 

According to your mother, she thought I was from Greensboro, NC. Since I tagged myself in some pictures of the hotel… She didn’t expect a truck driver from Buffalo, N.Y… between you and me, I suspect she just thought I was sexy. 

Anyway we got to talking that night, found we had alot of common interests and goals… then the conversation moved to us not doing anything for the fourth of July… She was working that night at a hospital. I was stuck in a hotel. Otherwise we just chit chatted really. The next day I messaged her again, we chit chated some more, next thing I know she was coming over to the hotel and i was buying IPA beer at a gas station so we can get drunk after she got out of work.

I didnt think she was actually coming over. At the same time I hated meeting her at a hotel… Then again I was wondering if this was a sleezy girl to be so willing to a guys hotel room with beer… despite all these reserves there was beer involved and as a gentleman I wasn’t going to make any moves on her. I intended, if she made any moves on me I would send her off asap and just go back to sleep. When she got there I had no idea what to expect and I kinda just thought it be better to take her to the hotels out door patio area. 

We drank and laughed all night long, I think untill there abouts 3 am. Your mom was a perfect lady and made a fine impression on me…. AND she certainly can handle her ale just fine….( I’ll tell you how to test a womans character later, if i hadnt already don’t let me forget. Beer is important)

She drove home completely drunk despite my offer to get her a seperate hotel room. (As a gentleman of course). According to her I found out later, she thought I ment stay in my room…. anyways…

 I woke up the next day with a hang over and a sunburn trudging into the mechanic shop to discover they were almost ready for me to take the truck. I checked out of the hotel, waited a bit while I texted her to make sure she got home ok and some chit chat… AND then I got my truck back!. It wasn’t long at all when I got a new load out in Virginia some place so I rolled out thinking I would never see this lovely lady again… yet it really didn’t bother me if I didn’t. She seemed like a cool person – nothing really stood out to me in particular. Maybe I will maybe not… 

After just 50 miles driving… I was leaking coolant again! So, I called dispatch, they cancelled my new load and i went back to Greensboro…. I texted your mom told her what happened. This time I was just going to sleep in the truck at a nearby rest area then go to the mechanic the next morning. Your mom had mentioned she wanted to paint her kitchen… I had nothing to do that day, so I offered to help her. 

She gave me her address, and when I looked at her street from satellite view on Google maps, I figured I could bobtail there…. though because of hours of service regulations I would have to park there over night. So I explained this to her, and if she doesn’t feel comfortable with me sleeping in her house I can sleep in the truck… She didn’t understand HOS, but she was cool either way. I got started painting her kitchen for her,  she left me alone in her house while she went to work….. While she was gone, I went too the grocery store and made her speghetti ๐Ÿ˜€ We chit chated more and more, and I ended up sleeping on her couch after a movie. 

I woke up again the next day, and made me and her some Matcha. I didn’t have to go to the mechanic right away, and by this point I liked your mom and wanted to hang out with her! 

When I left for the mechanic, the new leak was an easy fix. The guy literally just went under the truck and tightened 1 screw. The Problem was solved…. until i drove 100 miles away that is and the coolant was leaking once more…. 

This was when it hit me… there was something very special about her…

I had full confidence in this mechanic, despite this being the third time it broke with the same issue. They had very good reviews, i spoke with several owner operators there whom only go there…. the shop didn’t strike me as having poor integrity. I knew they were the type to take pride in their work and always make sure things were done right the first time…. but a voice in my head said, this isn’t about the truck, it’s about her. While I considered these things, i told the mechanic “I know you guys are good people, just do what you gotta do”…. He looked at me as if I insulted him somehow – he didn’t know what I knew whats going on behind the scenes of course…. Either way I just left it at that… 

Once again I called your mom. She laughed that the truck was broken again and invited me over once more. I stayed the night slept on the couch. Once more I made matcha in the morning then rolled out to the mechanic…. 

It was finally fixed

Little buddy, this is important, because this is how god works. This is when you know you are being lead to green pastures or perhaps being gifted a gift. Through all these break downs, followed by only a $50 paycheck for the week sure I could have gotten upset. But by hearing God’s voice and seeing the situation I was in, how all this played out… I knew full well at this point that your mother would become my wife…. and I wasn’t even in love with her yet, nor do I ascribe to “love at first sight”…. I just knew and all my instincts just adjusted to what I knew…. and it’s when I came to just knowing this, the truck worked perfectly fine again…..  Do not ignore these things in your own life. These are the little signs and signals you should always watch for and you will see how God sets the stage up for something wonderful to happen. Never be too distracted to listen carefully and you will hear him and see his hand at work for yourself in your own life. ๐Ÿ™‚  

I Came back

From Greensboro, NC I rolled the truck all around only to schedual my hometime in Greensboro the very next week. I chated with your mom quite a bit while I was out, and I really liked her… So why not come back and have some fun with her I thought…

Your mom on the other hand, had another idea…. That is, instead of me taking her someplace fun, we do a paper bag floor in her laudry room…. Being a gentleman, I went along with this, and it turned out to be alot of fun anyway. We sat on the floor all night drinking beer ripping paper, glueing it to the floor, followed by staining…. the entire time I was flirting with her, but I don’t think she caught my advances. Also, the whole time I just wanted to hug her and kiss her on that floor, but it didn’t seem like the right moment – I probably should have then, now that I think about it…. 

Our first kiss

Your mom is the type of girl who doesnt  realize when a guy is flirting with her.  Such woman needs a kiss in such cases or it goes way over their heads and all you end up as is “just friends”…. 

When she brought me back to the truck I packed up my stuff as she was getting ready to rush out of there… I stoped her and asked; “Do you need anything”.

She was rushing over to her car, scrambling off to work and told me no… when I walked over and told her “I need something, just don’t hold it against me”… then I pecked her on the lips softly… 

She pulled away smiling, nervous, and in a rush… pulled her hair back over her ear and just said as she opened her car door. “I won’t hold it against you”. Nervously, she  jumped in and speed off as quick as she could…

So I caught her off guard, but I figured someone had to break the ice and if she hated me for it, well… I don’t have to see her again anyways so no harm done… My thinking was, She’ll either fall for me or run away I was fine with both outcomes…. when she speed off the way she did I thought she was just nervous, but worried I miss read her and she was actually angry… So I waited about an hour…

She texted me… 

And she wasn’t angry at all ๐Ÿ™‚ 

Dispatch sent me on a fantastic run

When I left I was sent all the way to the northern tip of Michigan, then back south to indiana. Then west all the way to Sandiego, CA. I spent a great deal of time in the desert along route 40 and 10 during that trip taking pictures of all the beautiful landscapes in Oklahoma, New Mexico and Arizona… meanwhile holding 5 – 6 hour phone calls with your mom and sending her pictures…. it seemed I had caught her attention….

Meanwhile when I wasn’t on the phone with her I prayed about her…. I think towards the end of that run I took serious consideration of your mother… I already knew God was setting me up with her. I already knew we had many common goals and interests.. and i also already knew, she and I would make a great couple…. what i didnt know was if she was ready to commit to me… and so I just thought about these things while I hiked around the desert in Arizona and kept my thoughts to myself..  

While i was on my way back to North Carolina, She told me she wanted to get a CDL and team drive with me…. I had to double take on this she caught me off guard. Infact I didn’t believe her at first though my heart was sinking hearing this…. It took a couple days of her telling me this that I figured out she’s was being serious…. 

I called Werner told them what she wanted and if the company could have me as her trainer after her truck school…. I was told I needed to have 6 months experience before then. As it worked out… when she would be done with school and got her license I would have 6 months ๐Ÿ˜€ after training it can be arranged that we team drive, I just gotta call my guy Scott at recruiting and he will set everything up, including a brand new truck. ๐Ÿ˜€

Your mother was thrilled, and began shopping for a truck school. You being very important, she had be around her family in Hampton, VA so that someone can baby sit you…. Though I tried to convince her to go to a better school I knew of in Florida and perhaps I could get a baby sitter there… The fact is, your mother knew what’s best. I’m sire the school she picked is just fine… I only wanted her to go to what i knew was the best, and with people I knew would take betty good care of her.
Road Trip

Your mom had another surprise for me. She told me she wanted to quit her job leave you with grandma, and roll around in the truck with me for 2 weeks… What a woman I thought, and how can I say no? Also, with 3 days off before we rolled out, I could finally start properly courting her. 

Our first date

I found a place in town: “Kersey Valley” and bought a couple tickets for an escape the room game in a haunted mansion. BUT it wasn’t until later that night so we had time to kill… I treated her to breakfast at a really cool looking coffee shop called “The Green Bean”. We spent all morning there drinking coffee and chatting about nothing in particular. She really wanted to show me this park in town, and so after a good while we left to see it. It was a beautiful botanical garden park, adjacent to another park that was a swamp. We walked around, nervously flirting with each other and taking in the beautiful flowers, statues, and old buldings… We sat on a swing bench, where I wanted to kiss her once again, but I held back seeing how tense she was… this garden was overwhelmingly romantic, I think your mom didn’t know and was worried it would overwhelm me in someway.. and here is when I found out your momma was a pervert – asking me all kinds of sex questions… I just laughed and answered her, but I took it as she clearly likes me ๐Ÿ˜‰ but I could see it was also nervous tension…  

We walked over to the other park that was a swamp with a boardwalk. It was also very pretty with ducks and the kind of rustic charm I love about North Carolina…. As it is though, we still had time to kill so I found a craft beer shop near the coffee place, bought us a 6 pack of mix match beers, then we went window shopping in some of the craft shops…. 

While we were walking down Elm st. Going no where in particular your mom was hungry and i saw a sushi restraunt. So I asked her if she ever had real sushi… She told me no, but please don’t spend so much money on her…. Bullocks I thought, so grabbed her by the hand and ran across the street to feed her…. We were the only 2 people in that restraunt, I got us a dragon roll and avacodo roll, green tea, and hibachi…. Your mother, was so modest looking at the prices on the menu… I had to keep telling her “Don’t worry about it, you gotta let me upgrade you a little bit”. She smiled, and said ok you can upgrade me. After dinner, we had another hour to kill, we went back to the truck to drop the beer off and move some things around to get her settled in… then we went off to our haunted mansion adventure…. We had a great time even though we failed to escape the room. There were ghosts, and puzzles, things jumping out at us, clues, fog machines and black lights… By the time we got back to the truck we were so tired we fell asleep.

Let me just say this now. I am a perfect gentleman…. I insisted on sleeping on the top bunk seperate from your mom. 

The next day we went back to the coffee shop for breakfast, I had to provision while in town and we just went around town buying food to stock up on and beer. Later that night we got drunk in the truck listening to music… I handed your mom my phone and told her to show me some country music songs she likes….

See I’m a Yankee city boy, I don’t listen to country music… and I figured she would know some of the best of it… sure enough she did. This was the first song she picked for me, “Cruise” by: Georgia-Florida State Line…. AND I LOVED IT:

As the night went on, I could see her serenading me with YouTube… I took the phone and began serenading back at her, and we just went back and forth with each other with love songs…. I was falling in love with her very quickly… yet at the same time I felt as if I knew her forever…. BUT it was also hot so I took my shirt off… Your mom being the pervert she is looked at my shorts and told me “You must have a really big dick”. I laughed blushing, realizing my buldge was rather obvious through the shorts I was wearing… I sat down and made fun of her.. 

That night when we went to sleep together in the same bed cuddleing each other. I thought about her and me… I thought about you and thinking how I could raise a kid. I thought about our first kiss, the song she played for me… how much I liked her, how much we have in common, how much we have the same goals. I thought about her temperment, and how well we could be as team drivers. I thought about what could go wrong here what’s her flaws and can I see myself putting up with her for weeks at a time…. I prayed on these things and I just heard God’s voice telling me, “She is perfect for you, Im giving her to you, take care of her she’s yours”

… I just felt so perfect with her. I knew she would be mine and all I had to do was kiss her and we could make love right there… but I waited. And I don’t really know why I waited… but I did… it just didn’t feel like the right moment. So all these considerations I kept in my heart and fell sleep as she was caressing my hand with her velvet like fingers. 

The last day on my time off we just sat around the truck not doing anything in particular besides drinking more beer… that night… I had it my mind, it was stupid for me to wait and As we cuddled I began makeing out with her…. As our clothes were starting to come off and I began to get in her panties your mom pushed me off…. I knew she wanted it, she knew I wanted it…. But, she had too much integrity as a lady should. She told me I havnt had a woman in over 5 years, why break it now, especially considering what sex ment to me and she couldn’t be the one…. I heard her, and I myself knew i was ready for her and commit to her… but she didn’t know it… 

I wasn’t angry about it, I just rolled over and tried to get my mind off sex while I fell asleep… 

The next day when we woke up, I told her I understand if she wants to leave now, but this is her last chance I can’t stop for 2 weeks… I felt a little guilty about making my move the night before, and I was relieved she didn’t seem to think anything of it when she told me “Lets go”. 

We rolled out of the drop yard 
  

Little buddy I won’t lie to you even though your mom says I should, and maybe she’s right… We didn’t wait very long at all… I rolled out, drove around North Carolina a bit and at the end of my shift we stopped at I-26 SB rest area at mile marker 41… we did some macramae, watched true blood and cuddled… and the way your mom kept touching my back and caressing my hair…. We started making out all over again. As I was kissing her in my mind I cried out to god asking “Should I Lord take this woman” and i heard him tell me “yes, she is yours I gave her to you”… it was just then she told me she can’t resist me this time and I asked her… “Will you be my girl” she nodded and so I continued to make love to her, and it was a beautiful thing. 

She was the first woman I did anything with for 5 years since my Christian conversion, and I intended there and then to be completely hers. I wasn’t ready yet to say “I love you”…. and i told her this when she had asked… OH but I was falling very hard, this woman was in my every dream for weeks to come. I knew we would be a perfect couple, and I knew God had already blessed us as a couple. 

Then there is her son

As I am writing this, you may have noticed you were not anywhere in this story… so I just thought I would take a moment to touch on it. Your mom had made arrangements with your grandmother to watch you for a month while she was getting her house furnished and ready for you to move in when I met her… Also she wanted to find a day care, etc etc all kinds of things had to be set up that any parent would have to put together. I don’t know too many details, I just know she had only just moved there. But this is why I hadnt met you yet. I’ve seen pictures of you and had alot of questions about you of course, and I wasn’t nervous about the obvious conclusion I would be your step dad…. Your mom wanted me to meet you when I got back to Greensboro, however she came up with the idea to get a CDL instead – just as the ball rolled when that box of worms opened, the timing wasn’t right…. your mother and I both really felt it was more important at the moment to get her truck driving ASAP… Don’t get me wrong, I am eager to meet you… We’ve already made plans on what were doing when I finally do… things are just up in the air with many changes at the moment and there’s a lot of logistics we have to work out. 

In our 2 week run

Falling in love is like this…. We did so much for 2 weeks it felt like forever, and yet it’s all such a blur. As I sit here writing this, i struggle to remember, yet at the same time I don’t know how to summarize it…. perhaps it’s too soon and it all hasnt sunk in yet. The butterflies your mom left in my heart are blinding me from anything besides how much I miss her now that’s she’s left…. I want her so badly with me right now, but she’s gone back to Hampton, VA to begin truck school. So I will have to continue our journey into love in another article, in the meantime I’ll give you this summary. 

We cuddled ALOT. We drank ALOT. We ate out ALOT. We took hikes in the woods at various parts of the country ALOT, we Kissed ALOT. We held hands ALOT. We prayed ALOT, and we taught each other alot…. We did alot

and I knew that I loved her when we kissed in the South Carolina summer sunlight. In a forest clearing on a blanket by a stream. 

She gave me this song… and I knew it’s a song from her heart that I will treasure always

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