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Christian Dating…. Phase 2

After phase 1 I think I started to see what it was I was actually looking for in a girl. Though it was obvious they become a different species when put in a date kind of setting… Believe it or not I get along great with girls otherwise, as friends and nothing more, And I’m perfectly content with that. I think it’s weird to try to be something different actually… The minute I ask to buy them coffee, it’s like a switch flips off in their minds and they become a different person entirely from my first impression. That and I felt a little burnt out picking up girls randomly off the street. This was clearly not working, atleast for the most part. So I took to the internet!

This was where I discovered girls are even more complicated. But atleast they explain everything they expect from a guy on their profiles, and we can chat a bit from a distance before meeting…. right?

So I started chatting with one girl, which fizzled quickly into nothing. Then I chated with another and another… which fizzled into nothing. 

Then I met another girl of which I thought was great. She seemed very smart, she wanted to travel more, we talked about Martin Luther.. She was Lutheran…. So i gave her my number, then we started texting instead of the internet..  She asked for me to take a picture to make sure I was a real person, so I did. She sent pictures of herself too and told me she was fat… Which I just laughed and told her she’s pudgy not fat. And she loved that…. 

The next day I get a call from her mother, asking about why a 29 year old man is texting her 16 year old daughter. She was furious with me, telling me she will track me down and send me to jail as a sexual predator…. So I’m sitting there, knowing I did nothing wrong or illegal, letting her rant and I told her very plainly. Her daughter has a profile that says she is 25. Also I would wager that if she has to track me down, there must be 200 other guys she has to track down so good luck on that – but I suggest you shut your kids internet off. She didn’t respond to nicely to that, but I wasn’t there to make friends, and I hung up… She got a hold of my mother somehow, with threats and accusations to which she got upset… I just told my mom the truth and told her not to worry about it. And that was that, though I would like to know how she got my mother’s number…. 

The Librarian

The next girl I seemed to have hit it off with online was a Librarian. We got to talking about different stuff and things, when the conversation shifted to her explaining to me how “Taxation is Theft”. That’s when my heart stoped and I was thinking I discovered a unicorn that must be caught! Non stop on the phone for several days, she was a very chatty girl and I completely enjoyed our conversations.

She mentioned she would love to see a Wicked on Broadway…. And that’s when I was like OMG I can get free tickets to wicked and it’s only an hour drive from her place… She didn’t live in (Buffalo, Ny btw and I was staying in Allentown, PA)…. Remember earlier I had said, the minute you ask a girl to buy her coffee a switch goes off and she becomes a different species…. For the first time, after several days she got very weird. Made up all kinds of excuses, then told me this isnt how marrying a man is supposed to be. I’m supposed to take her out to coffee first. And that Broadway plays are a 4th date kind of thing and I’m rushing things. Broadway play isn’t really a place to get to know each other she says… So I told her, well I have no problem with coffee – but we’ve been talking for several days now, I think we can skip some of the formalities of getting to know each other. Perhaps coffee at the zoo then, we can talk while looking at the animals and scenery – we could get to know each other there probably better then Broadway… Nope, it’s not part of the schedual and I’m an asshole – fine whatever. 

The next online girl was…. interesting 

The next week, I met another girl whom I thought was great. She seemed to love  talking about different things, including taxation being theft and about indirect taxation…. Which was great! Another unicorn, wow!

So I just gave her my number and we started texting and calling on and off. She was into ASMR so I watched some of her videos on YouTube. I was like OMG that’s really amazing. And I found out I’m one of the rare people who gets tingles from certain sounds…. (there is a whole other thing to explain with this subject)… But anyway, she invited me over to do asmr in person instead of videos…. At first I thought this was some kind of weird kinky sex thing. And yet I could see it was something else entirely…. So I went along with this. I did not ask to buy her coffee this time, I believe this is where I started to catch on to how girls operate…. Just let her lead was now my plan. 

So I get there and we do ASMR on each other all night long. It was probably the best date that ever happened to me. She said she couldn’t believe I was a virgin at this because I gave her major tingles- And the entire time she was quivering. Then she says since its getting warmer why don’t we go to this nudist camp nearby, just don’t expect to have sex… Now I’m a Christian, a very devout Christian but also a very flamboyant person – I reasoned with myself first (no sex being involved) and said sure let’s go! 

We get to the nudist camp, strip down and start hiking in the woods with only flip flops. She starts skipping, I started skipping. Then we found a stall that sells  body paint made from flowers and berries…. She wanted to do it, so I bought a kit. We began painting each other to look tribal… Then I found a spot in the woods and asked if she wanted to build a grass hut. She loved the idea, though I did most of the work… (It was a handsome, sturdy hut of quality workmanship and of course German ingenuity). She ended up makeing flower hats whilst I build our home in the woods. At the end of the day we sat around the camp fire, while I played the ukele I brought while she roasted marshmallows 🙂 we were smiling and laughing everything was great and then we went to bed. 

So it was a perfectly normal and wonderful hippy dating experience. We both thoroughly enjoyed ourselves. Though it did get cold and we had to get cloths back on…. More importantly, there was no sex. I was spooning her in oir hut All the while, I was thinking I could easily fall in love with this girl. She is everything I ever wanted, though I wasn’t sure if she was Christian. She was excellent at evading the subjects of religion and politics.

We awoke from our grass hut and went back to her place, where She wanted to do more ASMR. It started in a chair, but we took it the bed…. It was just easier to lay down, and we both agreed sex wasn’t going to happen… After going to a nudist camp and painting each other naked, we thought it’s safe to say by now that we can trust each other’s hormones…. And that’s where we did asmr on each other….

My conscience about asmr and what we were doing was bothering me the whole time I was seeing her…. It’s just, she described it as “mental orgasms”. Also the tingle feelings were supposed to be therapeutic yet from what I saw on the internet, there was definitely a pornographic weird sex thing side to this… but also a thereputic non sexual side- not knowing much about it really or seeing a difference, and the way I made her legs shake… I just felt like I have sinned somehow and couldn’t put my finger on it. Yet I didn’t see anything in scripture to suggest that I did. Soooo whatever, Never mind all of that, this girl was AMAZING!! 

So we made each other tingle in bed through the morning over coffee. And I over looked the fact her legs were quivering the whole time. She certainly had the same effect on me but it was then I noticed I ejaculated…. And my conscience began to bother me again while she grabbed a towel for it. I apologized and laughed, and I was embarrassed that it happened, and apologized again.. She on the other hand seemed to think it was perfectly normal. I confess, It was the most amazing sexual experience of my life. Yet I was amazed, she didn’t put a single finger on me to erouse it. I felt like a kid who just lost his virginity. Both pleased and guilty, and completely infatuated with this amazing creature. 

Every day for a week I stopped over and we whispered into each others ear, followed by coffee…. untill the end that is…. 

She whispered into my ear something Babylonian, of which I used to teach at the Theosophical Society…. (those who read ‘My Road to Christ’ – should know I was a teacher there). So I stoped her and ask where she learned this. She told me from a special course at theosophical society many years ago…. “I taught that course!”. I said. She said she knew that but wasn’t sure I remembered her… to be fair I didn’t, the room was always dark and there were 30 people in there at a time always coming and going anyway… I’m glad she seemed to understand why I didn’t recognize her… but I told her that I was Christian now. So she asked, how did this happen – and I told her the entire story, as she just listened….

When I was done, and I explained that Jesus gave me everything I have and I owe even my life to him. She said, every religion is good and everyone goes to heaven….. This little statement is what spiraled our conversation quickly into a whole new discussion. I found out she was a regular at Lily Dale, she often practiced witch craft- and asmr was her way of luring men as she invoked the spirit of the siren…. With some of the things she had to say that wouldn’t make sense to a normal christian – Suddenly, a lot of things from my neo-pagan past came back to me. I knew exactly what she was doing, I knew I had also fallen under a spell… 

So now with religion out of the bag… I can not marry a neo pagan as a Christian, and I can’t force her to convert anymore then she seemed inclined to. At the same time I felt slightly violated, and it suddenly occured to me that everything about this was wrong and would never work. It was about then we began arguing over me being chritian because I was brainwashed and according to her “lacked knowledge”…
I left angry and slightly heart broken, and yet reminded the world is a cruel place. Then I prayed that God would forgive me – And to protect me from girls like this. 

That’s the end of her 

After this experience I’ve met a few other girls online sorta off and on. But I kinda felt like they are all the same. After this last one I’m really not interested. I have resolved a new strategy, that is to stop looking and let her come to me on God’s timing. Anything other seems to just lead to convivilaity. I’m still talking with the aquarium girl from the last article on this on and off – I just don’t expect it to go anywhere, but leaving the door open anyway. 

I shouldn’t have gone online. I met other girls on there not mentioned, that seemed nice. Yet, otherwise they’re not interested in me. In a way I kind of feel like they’re just jerking my chain of which I have little patience with so I just won’t bother. 

Mainly I think the trouble I have with dating is I have taken a secular approach to it, instead of a Christian one. Everything I have done is what I was always told in how adults date each other. In addition There is a whole science of compatibility involved that seems to get in the way more often then not. Followed by a generalized script and procedure involved… And sure when I finally went off the script and procedure I actually got alot further with it, and even then my heart was crushed over a fling.

Dating in modern times seems to be, you have to have sex with each other on the first date or it won’t go any further then that… of which I can not and will not do. (ASMR is now considered sex in my mind). So if I never get married because of it, fine with me. I’ll marry my PlayStation instead. 

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Christian Dating… phase I

Since I became Christian about 5 years ago I have enjoyed the single life and with that of course celibacy. In that, I think I have gotten very comfortable being single. I did not realize how much so until I decided to start dating again these past couple months. So, as a writer I’m just going to talk about my experience. 

First Girl

The first girl I met at the grocery store. I just made small talk with her about organic smoothies. She seemed interested so then I asked her if she was up to go to a juice bar. Of a truth I was well outside my comfort zone, but I just acted like it was the most normal thing in the world to pick up a girl. I figured this wouldn’t go anywhere anyway, but it’s a practice run so what the heck. To my surprise she said yes and asked if I could drop her off at her house first to put away groceries. Sure, why not….

 That’s when I discovered she was a slut, and I was a celibate Christian man. I was driving and talking, when she reached over to my ‘stick shift’. She told me then, we don’t have to go to the juice bar and that she feels like getting naked at her place. I was offended, but I just maintained composure and stoped talking. Took her to her house, and as a gentleman I carried in her groceries, then left her. 

Second Girl

Second girl I found online. She had nothing to do today, so I asked her if she wouldn’t mind coffee. So we met at spot coffee. I bought our drinks and food of course being a gentleman. As we started talking she pulled out her phone and looked at my profile…. At this point I kinda felt as if I were in a job interview while she reviewed my application. She asked me about this or that on my profile and I gave her answers of course. Though this was unusual, i thought i was doing good so far. Then she came to “Taxation is Theft” and asked about it as if it were a bad thing. So I explained to her how she is the owner the product of her labour, and how the government views her as their property- and therefore entitled to the product of her labour- so really taxation isn’t just theft it’s also slavery. She looked at me shocked and stunned, completely mortified even… I was a little bit surprised with her reaction, I only ever talk to people who think taxation is theft, she is the first person in a long time who ever said to my face; “Taxation isn’t theft and I’m weird”…. So I was like, whatever, I’ll just get my food to go then and left. 

Third Girl

The next girl I met at a pet store. She loved fish, and – if you can’t tell by the name of my blog site (I’m big on fish tanks too). She had 15 aquariums at home, to which I was amazed. I had to see this for myself, so I invited my self over, and she was thrilled at the idea of showing them off. Sure enough she had a house full of fish tanks, and she was telling me all about the different systems she set up as I marveled at her extreme nerdyness. When I was done with the tour I asked her if she would like to go to the aquarium in Baltimore with me. She was very excited about the idea, though it was a 7 hour drive…. 

In my mind a 7 hour drive isn’t that far, and here is where I realized I’ve been single doing my own thing way too long. I kind of thought it’s a great way to get to know someone… I almost forgot, Normal people don’t like to drive 7 hours to places, who knew right…  However that’s about where I lost her. 

She seemed like she wanted to go out with me, so we talked about different places instead that were closer. On on hand i could she was a very indescive person, on the other hand I could see this conversation spiraling into nothing – so I just put it out there to the bottom line; “Just pick anywhere you would like to go, and I’ll pay for it.” – Now what is wrong with that? Make it tommorrow or the next day, whatever and whenever is fine with me. So she gave me her number and said she will get back to me as she sent me on my way. 

I waited a few days and texted her, and we are still chating on and off…. This girl will make an appearance again in Phase 2 😉 

Fourth Girl

So then I went to a different church that had a coffee chit chat time. And I found a nice girl there, atleast I thought. She seemed to be a bit more flamboyant then most church girls, so I asked her if she ever went to Church in a Pub. She never heard of it, so I explained it’s like a bible study but at a pub. There is a pastor who does it downtown at pearl street brewery. She said well, it’s beer though and she didn’t want to become an alcoholic – and that I’m going to hell because I’m involved with it…. Well I’m not involved with it, I just heard of it and otherwise didn’t have an excuse to go… BUT anyway, she then proceeded to explain to me that alcohol is inherently satanic and anyone who drinks it deserves to go to hell…. In my mind, I was thinking Jesus first miracle was turning water into wine- and everything she was saying may as well be blah blah blah… despite this i asked if she wanted to go out for coffee instead. Sure – great, and off we went to the coffee shop. 

It seemed the foundation was already laid and not going to go anywhere. The flamboyant little doll I had met, suddenly became an evil church lady – picking me apart and analyzing all my sins. And she had only just met me…. Being christian I just told her that Indeed I have many sins, vod knkws all of them – however I am very devoted to my relationship with him, and scripture says he will take me anyway as I am. She got angry and said something, which I completely ignored- and I told her Thankfully my salvation is not contingent on her approval, that’s when I got up and left before she had a chance to say anything. 

Fifth Girl

Then I met another girl online, she loved animals and things, so I told her I have tickets to the zoo tommorrow, I was going to go with a friend but he cancelled… (yes this was a lie, but anyway). She liked the idea and we agreed to meet up. I showed up early so I could buy 2 tickets before she got there. So we get into the zoo, look around and talked about different things. Then I went to the bathroom… She snuck in to the men’s room, came from behind and grabbed my crotch as I was peeing. Again my first instinct was of course sure, let’s do this in the bathroom At the zoo! Then I remembered myself, pushed her back and left. 

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 Phase 1 complete

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All of that was just about my first week or so picking up girls… I figured, I don’t seem to have a problem getting girls at all. It’s getting one for longer then one day that’s a problem…. So I think my mistake was rolling them out on a conveyer belt, and perhaps rushing things, whilst trying to follow a standardized procedure. At the same time, I don’t think it was a mistake – it was just practice dating anyway. Getting my feet wet and testing the market of what I was dealing with in this war zone…. And indeed, it’s a war zone as I discovered in the next phase.  

Continue to Phase 2

Christianity vs. Statism 

Taken from unnamed facebook writer. 
The overall scriptural narrative is anti-imperial. The “great” kings like Pharaoh and others are foils to show the true greatness of God. In 1 Samuel 8, the people ask for a human king, and god sees this as a disaster, as being opposed to his own kingship.  At best, governments are a mere concession on God’s part to humans.
As John Howard Yoder points out, even in the temptations of Jesus (Matt. 4:1-11, Luke 4:1-13) indicate a rejection of worldly power.  The third temptation of Christ is “the kingdoms of the world and their splendor,” which Satan can give Jesus if he pays obeisance to Satan. Satan is considered “the Prince [ruler] of this world” and is quite sincere in his offer, and Jesus, who is the messiah, did not brush it off as impossible. But Jesus seems to understand that the kingdoms of this world do belong to Satan, and his followers should not think otherwise. Furthermore, the theme of Babylon as an evil state under the influence of Satan permeates the book of Revelation. In Revelation 18:4, for instance, God exhorts His church to “come out of her [Babylon], my people, so that you will not share in her sins, so that you will not receive any of her plagues.”
The differences between the kingdom of man and the Kingdom of God is fundamental to understand. Indeed, this is the biggest mistake made throughout history. Theologians like John Howard Yoder call this problem “Constantinianism” in which the legitimized church gets entangled with the state, or embraces a “Christendom” that ultimately falls into the pattern of the world rather than be molded by Christ. This is not to say that Jesus is not at all “political,” and only focused on the spiritual (not stuff of life and resources here on earth). Just the opposite. Jesus is a King bringing forth the kingdom of God. So, the kingdom of God was itself, and remained, a thoroughly political concept. Jesus’ death was a thoroughly political event, and the existence and growth of the early church was a matter of community-building, in conflict politically, often enough, with other communities. 
 But Jesus explicitly says that, “My kingdom is not from this world… my kingdom is not from here” (John 18:36). The “rules of the kingdom” as explained in the Sermon on the Mount are unlike any sort of state laws that have ever existed. Furthermore, it is not the job of the Christian to use physical force to bring about his kingdom, but rather to “seek first his kingdom and his righteousness” (Matt. 6:33). The kingdoms of man are founded upon power and violence, but the Kingdom of God is founded upon humility (Matt. 18:4), service (Matt. 20:26), and love (John 13:35). While we cannot help being entangled with/in states in this world, we are reminded once again that “our citizenship is in heaven” (Philippians 3:20).
The difference between the kingdom of God and the kingdom of the world comes down to the kind of power they trust. The kingdoms of the world place their trust in whatever coercive power they can exercise over others. We can think of this kind of power as the power of the “sword” (and that is the language of Romans 13 as well). In contrast, the kingdom of God refuses to use coercive power over people, choosing instead to rely exclusively on whatever power it can exercise under people. This is the transforming power of humble, self-sacrificial, Christlike love. Exercising power under others is about impacting people’s lives by serving them, sacrificing for them, and even be sacrificed by them while refusing to retaliate, as Jesus did. We can think of this kind of power as the power of the cross, for the cross is the purest expression of humble servant-like, self-sacrificial love. 
While the kingdom is in a sort of opposition to the nations, this doesn’t mean kingdom people are always to be law breakers. When laws conflict with the rule of God, of course, they must break them (Ac 5:39). But otherwise they are naturally to go along with them, for not doing so would unnecessarily get in the way of our call to build the kingdom. But we submit to laws not because they have ultimate “authority” over us, but primarily because we submit to God. This brings us to Romans 13 (and Titus 3:1-3, 1 Timothy 2:1-3, and 1 Peter 2:11-17).
Most importantly, Romans 13 must be read in conjunction with the verses that immediately precede it.  In this case, Romans 12:17-21. There are no chapter markers in the original text, and it only makes sense as a single unit. Scholars (again see Yoder for details) see the parallel structure in the language itself as impossible to be coincidentalI. In these passages Paul tells kingdom people they are to love and serve their enemies and never exact vengeance on them. Rather, we are to leave all judgment to God. Then, beginning in Romans 13, Paul tells us one of the ways God exacts vengeance on people: he uses governments. So God uses governments, as he finds them, to do the very thing he has just forbidden kingdom people to do. The passage thus shows not that Christians have a responsibility to participate in government, but that we have an obligation not to participate when it does things we as kingdom people are forbidden to do (like using violence against wrongdoers).
Verse 1 of Romans 13 says that state authorities are instituted by God. Paul’s primary message for Christians, however, is not that states are specially instituted in the same way as the family and church, but rather that the state is not operating outside of the plans of God. In this sense, the state is divinely instituted in the same way that Satan is divinely instituted. God is not surprised when states act the way they do. As noted specifically in the Gospels, the state is understood throughout Scripture as being intimately tied to Satan and his kingdom, and patently opposed to the kingdom of God. The state’s status within God’s ultimate plan does not legitimize the evil the state commits.
Submission to civil government, then, is always qualified. The command is to obey in general, but sometimes we will disobey public policy because of personal and Scriptural conviction. Christians are to obey most policy whenever directly requested to do so, but ensuring active compliance with every public policy is unnecessary. All submission is directed at being expedient and practical toward men and glorifying toward God.
Verses 2-4 indicate that if you irritate the state then you will face wrath, but if you behave in the way the state wants then they will be pleased. At many points, what the state defines as good and evil may be very much opposed to what God defines as good and evil. But what Paul is telling the believers in Rome is that if they do something that the Roman government defines as evil then they will likely be punished for it. We cannot overly abstract this verse from its cultural context and make it an absolute requirement on all cultures at all times. To do so would be to put Christians under a great bondage to bad public policy. There is no compelling reason to think that Paul was deliberately writing about any particular rulers other than those in the first century Roman Empire.
Paul knew full well the power of Nero and the potential harm he could cause to Christians in Rome via the common term of the times for such state power, “the sword.” He does not want believers to be persecuted for anything other than the name of Christ and what he stands for. Paul reminds the Roman Christians, though, that even the dreadful power of the state is not outside the power of God. His message to them is the same as Romans 8:28, that “all things work together for good for those who love God, who are called according to his purpose.” Even the state or enemies can indeed be a means of sanctification for the Lord’s church.

Verses 5-7 expand upon the reasons for submitting and include practical ways the Roman Christians were to respond to Paul’s message. The reason we must submit to government is to avoid wrath or worrying about being harmed by the state authority. God does not want us to be entangled with the affairs of this world to the point where such involvement detracts from our primary mission. The believers were concerned that the Roman state would find a legal reason to persecute them.  Paul also says to submit to paying taxes for the same reason: avoiding state wrath in order to live for God, and be seen as good by others. 
The fact that Paul needs to stress the need for civil obedience itself tells fairly strongly, if paradoxically, in favor of this basic Christian Anarchist  anti-power-over perspective. It implies that, without some such restraining counsel, some might have heard Paul’s teaching to imply that the church was to become a Christian version of the Jewish zealots, owing allegiance to no one except God and therefore under obligation to rebel violently against human rulers, and to refuse to pay taxes. The paragraph can therefore be seen, not as evidence that Paul would not have been saying anything subversive, but that he had been, and now needed to make clear what this did, and particularly what it did not mean. It did not mean for the church taking up “the sword” themselves.
For Paul to even say that the ruler is answerable to God is itself a Jewish point over against pagan ruler-cult. Caesar did not, normally, owe allegiance to anyone except himself, and perhaps, though at a surface level, the traditional Roman gods. Paul declares, with massive Jewish tradition behind him, that Caesar is in fact responsible to the true God, whether or not he knows it. This is an undermining of pagan totalitarianism, not a reinforcement of it. 
Paul wants the Roman Christians to live appropriately in the tension between present and future. This does not mean, as Paul’s own example bears out, that one must be politically totally compliant or repressed until the final reappearing of Jesus. Preaching and living the gospel must always mean announcing and following Jesus, rather than Caesar, as the true Lord. But the eschatological balance must be kept. The church must live as a sign of the coming complete kingdom of Jesus Christ; but since that kingdom is characterized by peace, love and joy it cannot be inaugurated in the present by chaos, hatred and anger.
Romans 13 is not an abstract, blanket statement that requires submission to all state laws, in all places, for all circumstances, at all times. Nor is it a prescription for what particular form of government is sanctioned by God or for how states should act. The historical context and wording requires us to be careful when making pronouncements about what a Christian’s submission to the state looks like. 
Any Christian obedience to government is for the purpose of expedient peaceful living and bringing no dishonor to the name of Christ. It is part of enemy love as is explicitly clear from Romans 12. But we are not obligated to follow every jot of public policy. Moreover, we are not supposed to follow any law that goes against the law of God. If we are to be persecuted, it should be for the name of Christ and what he stands for, not for refusing to follow some random law when directly threatened by state action. Romans 13 is part of a radical message of an alternative way of living, even among the world at odds with the ways of the church. It is not a ticket to fall into the historical disastrous anti-gospel attempts at Christendom within the Constantinian paradigm.

Why I am not against the Communist Christians

I have a christian anarchist group which is compiled of every kind of anarchist. Naturally with mixed company, people are bound to disagree – some so fervently they exile it altogether.In this group there is maybe 2 or 3 communists who actually post something against capitalism. Out of, oh 2000 anarch-capitalists I’m probably of the handful of who posts something about how great capitalism is…. Yet 2000 people get all riled up about how there’s communists in the group.

I’ve spoken with the communists about their views. Of course, they were all to happy to explain themselves. With consideration and respect I can’t help at disagree of course myself. However I can see very plainly they carry the spirit of christ about as much as the capitalists and therefore they are my brothers/sisters regardless. I am very much a capitalist, But I am first and foremost christian. Here’s the the bottom line of what I know for an absolute fact. Neither type of anarchy, communism or capitalism, will prevail in this world anyway – Scripture guarantees it, It’s almost a pointless argument.

We as Christians are here to wait for christ to rip down all of earth’s kingdoms and establish his millennial kingdom. In the meantime, we are like the Jews wondering in the wilderness. Frankly, what that entails, I’d like to think its a capitalist kingdom, but I’m open to being proven wrong. Until that day we all find out for sure, excuse me if I’m more interested in talking about the gospel.

Yes actually communism can work in millennial kingdom.

Oh sure, communism has failed miserably in times past. However it can not be ignored, scripture promises us each a mansion to be given to us. We will never thirst or hunger – so we can look past the possibility of bread lines. Jesus will be king of the kingdom – in itself makes ‘Christian Anarchism’ an oxymoron. Certainly, communism has failed in a imperfect world, but christ promises us he will make a perfect world.

….Then again, all of this can equally be achieved via capitalism. Yes labor has been exploited even under the name “Free Market”.  Certainly, corporations have and can replace the state – in fact the current president of America views the state as such a corporation that needs to be more efficient. Just as the communists so often contend, there is flaws in capitalism as well, though this is neo-conservativism/liberalism not anarch capitalism…. Again we are in a imperfect world. Capitalism can be perfected in Christ kingdom as it has just as much failed as communism in many regards. There are even things to be doubtful of Ludwig Von Mises’s presented model. The problem both sides know and fear is that, authority always has a way of centralizing itself. Whether socialist or capitalist – this is central to our dilemma.

Who knows – maybe we’ll find out the Anarch-Primitives had it right this whole time and were all wrong…

Since I’m thinking about Moses…

With that said, I’m reminded of something Moses said to the Israelite’s. After he discovered they were worshiping the golden cow. They broke out in argument with each other and immediately began splitting up. Those who wanted to follow the cow, and those who wanted to wonder around with Moses.

Moses shouted to the people who stood by him:

“Lay Them Waste

And they slathered those who wanted to follow the cow….

I look at the members in my Facebook group who want to leave, just because there’s 2 or 3  communists who posted about communism or capitialist said this and that. I can’t help at wonder if this would be the same reaction if Jesus said when he establishes his kingdom “We’re going to be a communist society”.  Yet I should say the same for the communists who get themselves in a uproar over the capitalist out come…. My heart would be grieved if christ gave me just such an order as Moses on that day – that I should have to boot a person out of his kingdom just over economic policy. Though, I don’t think it will come to that.

The last fact is, both of these ideas are man made and founded entirely by unashamed and fervent Athiests. Karl Marx, David Gaeber, Ayn Rand, Ludwig Mises – all of them made it no secrete they despise Christianity. Why were even listening to them is hypocrisy in of it self. Neither capitalist or communist knows what to expect when Christ’s kingdom comes, we can only follow in Christ’s general direction as far as ideals. We ourselves are not going to be the authors of his constitution – and I’m fairly sure he has something entirely different in mind.

Stop your bickering and just promote what you believe, not complain about what you disagree with in the meantime. My fellow capitalists I am ashamed in how sensitive you can be considering your the majority anyway :-/

The Greatest Sinner – a prayer 

“A certain moneylender had two debtors. One owed five hundred denarii, and the other fifty. When they could not pay, he cancelled the debt of both. Now which of them will love him more?”Simon answered, “The one, I suppose, for whom he cancelled the larger debt.” And he said to him,“You have judged rightly.”- Luke 7: 41 – 43

This short parable, is so telling about me. I am the man who owes 500 denarii… 5000 denarii more likely. My sins are so many, and even after I am forgiven still I fight with myself.  

I am proud and boastful – downright arrogant. I burn with lust nearly every night Insufferably. I am slothful and indifferent. I lack manners or concern for others feelings…. I go to God and pray constantly to heal this side me, I hold back as best I can in life. I pray the spirit works in me away these things… Yet I am but a mild improvement after many years…. I am a man, that’s all I can be. 

Yet I’m told by some regardless of my belief in Christ I’m doomed to hellfire. I’m told I do not have the best of fruits of the spirit,  therefore I do not carry it at all – but it only strengthens my faith. While my sins are many – foolishness is thankfully not one of them. 

Thank you God for grace, even for a wretched creature like me. Thank you for not judging me the way people do. Thank you for telling me you will take me as I am and make me someday perfect. I know for certain I can have faith in none other to want me. I am truely humbled, and exalt your mercy. My aligence and my service is in you. If it’s deemed not good enough, I desire your wrath as I truely deserve it.

I know until it’s proven, to no one’s doubt, my name is in the book of life, my flesh will be gone and my spirit can only cling to you. I can do no other, and I’m grateful thats all you ask of me. Amen  
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Easy Believeist 

In all the years I have been a christian. I have maintained that scripture is the only reliable source of information. In my walk, I believed that so much I have only rested my understanding based on what I’ve read in scripture, with very minimal input from the world….
That said, let me tell you what I’ve just discovered about myself that I didn’t know before….

I am an Easy Believeist 🙂

I don’t believe you should say the sinners prayer to be saved. I believe that you should do it because you believe it is the truth. I believe that Jesus did infact live and die then resurrected, for our sins for anyone who believes on him can have eternal life. I also believe the moral law is not a command, it is an instructor.

My views and my conscience is only bound to the word of God. To say something contrary to scripture, for me is just unthinkable…. I can not to the best of my knowledge even want to lie. If I am in error, I believe I must be corrected and shown indefinitely why I am wrong based on scripture alone or just plain reason that is based on scripture alone.

I have sat with many easy Believeist like myself and found something interesting. We all have the same story to tell. We all started from some legalistic church or another, whom told us over and over to read the Bible…. Unfortunately for them, we did read the bible and saw very plainly what was wrong with thier theology as we grew in Christ.

So that’s me and what I’ve discovered about myself.

To The Gay Christian

The subject of can a gay person even be christian is something I find… shallow. some cases its a deep seeded hatred, more often sheer ignorance of certain truths. I myself am not one to pander, nor have any good thing to say about the LGBT so called ‘community’. Rather my interest is in the individual seeking christ or simply comfort in a world full of mixed political agendas.

Yes of course you can be gay and a christian. More than that, let me give you some meat on the subject so you understand where scripture is coming from on this position…. It’s not so much there’s strings attached, it’s just I myself am a rationalist – and if you are too, I gather you also want something better then a “feel good message”. The best way to confront this issue is just the facts of scripture, in order as scripture explains the issue. Most people don’t really like facts of the matter, but rest assured I won’t spare you from the simple truth. I’ll be using the ESV Bible, though if you prefer KJV is also recommended

I’m not very good at feel good messages, so I wont bother:

You shall not lie with a male as with a woman; it is an abomination. – Leviticus 18:22

Here we see the law as it is written. What is interesting is the way it’s worded ‘you shalt not lie with a male as with a woman’. Right here at the beginning were not talking about homosexuality parse, more like bisexuality. Ask yourself this, if you are married to a woman, why are you screwing other men? Or for the matter if you are gay guy married to another guy, why are you sleeping with woman?

The word choice for this is I think something we already know about the bible. Relationships are about monogamy. but theres more to this. Look at the dictionary for the definition of abomination:

abomination: a thing that causes disgust or hatred a feeling of hatred.
The bible in general, monogamy aside, talks a great deal about love…. One thing very noticeable about heterosexual marriages is – there’s a special kind of disgust from the wife when she learns her husband cheated on her with men instead of other woman. In this word ‘abomination’ I think we see that point illustrated.
Monogamy in general is about stability in a persons life. In regards to bisexual so called ‘identity’, it’s irrelevant really. You are either with someone or your not. This same law is reiterated later…. But if I may expand the context, as it’s particularly relevant in the case of adultry as the law describes the punishments for adultry:
“If a man commits adultery with the wife of his neighbor, both the adulterer and the adulteress shall surely be put to death. If a man lies with his father’s wife, he has uncovered his father’s nakedness; both of them shall surely be put to death; their blood is upon them. If a man lies with his daughter-in-law, both of them shall surely be put to death; they have committed perversion; their blood is upon them. If a man lies with a male as with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination; they shall surely be put to death; their blood is upon them. If a man takes a woman and her mother also, it is depravity; he and they shall be burned with fire, that there may be no depravity among you. If a man lies with an animal, he shall surely be put to death, and you shall kill the animal…… Leviticus 20: 10-15
So basically what you should get out of this is, if you are a gay christian there will be no sausage parties for you! But the fact remains, the law isnt about homosexuality. It’s about all the ways a person can commit Adultry. That is all, nothing more.

David and Jonathan

This gets brought up a lot, and of course your average legalist will deny it profusely. The thing is, scripture is in no way unclear – these 2 were not just ‘best friends’, and like I said before I don’t know how to make something sound…. ‘better’… so I won’t bother.

1 Samuel 18 – 22 can only be described as a ‘Broke Back Mountain’ style love story. I encourage a gay christian to read it in full for themselves, I’m just going to pick out the nuts and bolts that illustrate the point scripture is conveying.

As soon as he had finished speaking to Saul, the soul of Jonathan was knit to the soul of David, and Jonathan loved him as his own soul. And Saul took him that day and would not let him return to his father’s house. Then Jonathan made a covenant with David, because he loved him as his own soul. And Jonathan stripped himself of the robe that was on him and gave it to David, and his armor, and even his sword and his bow and his belt. And David went out and was successful wherever Saul sent him, so that Saul set him over the men of war. And this was good in the sight of all the people and also in the sight of Saul’s servants. – 1 Samuel 18: 1-5

Right at the start scripture isnt holding back

“The soul of Jonathon was knit to the soul of David”

Next we see:

“saul wont let him (david) return to his fathers house”

Next

“Jonathon made a covenant with David”

followed by

“Jonathan stripped himself of the robe that was on him and gave it to David, and his armor, and even his sword and his bow and his belt”

This is a biblical gay wedding my friend. the real giveaway is “Soul knit to the soul of david” – This is how the bible poetically describes marriage – not just in this case, but in every case people are getting married. The other giveaway is that they made a “Covenant” – the word covenant is a big deal in scripture, and indeed also refers to a marriage agreement. And whats really telling is David is not allowed to return to his fathers house… When 2 people are married, they live with each other. we see all of this very language earlier in genesis

Therefore a man shall leave his father and his mother and hold fast to his wife, and they shall become one flesh. -Genesis 2:24

Keep in mind, this is a royal wedding. of course it’s in front of the entire kingdom. Everyone saw the wedding of David and Jonathon, and considered a good thing at the end. The thing is…. This foundation is very important because it wasnt some deep dark secrete David and Jonathan were an item.

Saul, the king, absolutely hated David…. Traditionally, interpreted because David was so much better at fighting in war then he was. But examine the story a bit more closely almost immediately after the wedding, Saul goes insane. First he tries to kill him, next he convinces David to marry his daughter. Next in chapter 19 he tries to kill him again. Jonathan tries to protect David by sneaking him out of the house. they run away…. and I will just let you read the love story for yourself in 1 Samuel 18 – 22. There is highs and lows and all kinds of drama…. I wasn’t kidding about it being ‘Broke Back Mountain’

The Tragic End.

1 samuel leaves us off at the battle of the Amalekites where King saul, and Jonathan are killed. in the next book, 2 Samuel a messenger comes to David and tells him of their death. In his distress David cries out a whole speach about saul and jonathon to his army ending it with a peculiar thing to say:

I am distressed for thee, my brother Jonathan: very pleasant hast thou been unto me: thy love to me was wonderful, passing the love of women. 2 Samuel 1:26

So the thing is. Gay weddings are perfectly scriptural. This thing about David and Jonathan, It’s not a new discussion – I think a lot of modern Christians think so, but it’s been considered common knowledge throughout history. Though in the Renaissance the clergy took it to mean david was clearly just a sinner… Which indeed he was in more ways then just being gay. David was a person who could not control his hormones, It got him in trouble with God on several occasions. So whether he was gay or just promiscuous I couldn’t tell you. I can tell you, that even he broke the law of Moses, and it was his faith in God that was what accounted him to favor with God.

What is this thing Marriage?

The same day Sadducees came to him, who say that there is no resurrection, and they asked him a question, saying, “Teacher, Moses said, ‘If a man dies having no children, his brother must marry the widow and raise up offspring for his brother.’ Now there were seven brothers among us. The first married and died, and having no offspring left his wife to his brother. So too the second and third, down to the seventh. After them all, the woman died. In the resurrection, therefore, of the seven, whose wife will she be? For they all had her.”

But Jesus answered them, “You are wrong, because you know neither the Scriptures nor the power of God. For in the resurrection they neither marry nor are given in marriage, but are like angels in heaven. And as for the resurrection of the dead, have you not read what was said to you by God: ‘I am the God of Abraham, and the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob’? He is not God of the dead, but of the living.”And when the crowd heard it, they were astonished at his teaching.  – Matthew 22: 23-33

The reason I give you this whole scene is because I want to emphasize context…. This is not a Gay issue, so much as an everybody issue. The Sadducees were questioning the resurrection of the dead, and they assume when someone is married on earth they are also married in heaven after they are dead…. In this case they are asking about a woman who has been married multiple times due to her multiple husbands dieing and she just keeps getting re married…. Well it a fair enough question really.

Jesus tells us it’s no big deal how often we marry on earth. It doesn’t carry over to the next life anyway (Resurrection to be specific)…. Essentially. Also we won’t be getting remarried in the resurrection either, nor will we  procreate. This is a key point on the whole marriage concept – it really is. It’s doubtful we will even have a gender when all is said and done. and yet I would be remissed to ignore the point of marriage as described in scripture.

1 Corinthians 7 talks about all the reasons for marriage and it begins with:

Now concerning the matters about which you wrote: “It is good for a man not to have sexual relations with a woman.” But because of the temptation to sexual immorality, each man should have his own wife and each woman her own husband. The husband should give to his wife her conjugal rights, and likewise the wife to her husband. For the wife does not have authority over her own body, but the husband does. Likewise the husband does not have authority over his own body, but the wife does. Do not deprive one another, except perhaps by agreement for a limited time, that you may devote yourselves to prayer; but then come together again, so that Satan may not tempt you because of your lack of self-control. – 1 Corinthians 7: 1-5

Now this whole thing about sex being the point of marriage goes on for about half the chapter actually. The main point of an earthly marriage isn’t so rosey lensed. It’s a means to succumb to our urges without committing sexual immorality. Its a way to keep our drives under control.

So with this expanded view, that’s often ignored, It makes a great deal of sense that when we are resurrected into christ’s kingdom – We will be made perfect, without these urges, and without marriage altogether. It just so happens that in the mean time were stuck with them.

In the case of Homosexuality, if the couple can remain monogamous, in the strictest of scripture. Sure gay people can get married why not?

Marriage is between a man and a woman.

Both of the mentioned scripture defines marriage as man and woman…. yet not really. We saw David and Jonathan married under all the other definitions of marriage. To be honest I think the writer (Paul and Matthew) is speaking in broad general terms to convey a much larger point. This isn’t a law or edict being passed in it’s context its just an explanation of an abstract points. So in that I don’t really see a conflict – however I will leave it to the reader to judge with that said.

So with that said

I have likely pissed everyone off with this run down. Excuse me for just telling it like it actually is according to scripture, to the very best of my knowledge. I could easily add on to this, but 4 controversies is enough for one day. 🙂 However, this article is not for the heterosexual audience. It’s meant for the gay guy out there struggling with his faith and scripture.

It is to you, I can only say I know this world will twist your understanding in all kinds of ways. You are a homosexual in a straight world, and with that there’s all kinds of political agendas out there that distort the facts of scripture. Trust no one, including myself – though I bear no agenda other then truth to the best of my ability. God gave you a brain, you had better use it and judge all things to the best of your ability with discernment. Fact check and reason for yourself, and let the spirit guide you in your soul searching. We are not exactly walking on thin ice here In my opinion, but it is my opinion. Love your spouse as best you can and I hope he/she loves you back. What is most important above all things, is your faith that God will always lead you’re understanding if you let him.

Growing up

One of the reasons I became christian, was a woman in California named Anita Fuentes. I have long since spoken out against her as a false prophet, but I am reminded of the fact she did indeed “Open My Eyes”.
I was talking to another christian whom started their walk in Christ from a very different angle. The United Church of Christ. This person today rejects every thing about this superficial universalist dribble, for many of similar reasons I rejected Anita Fuentes….

We learned better and We grew up.

We started with these people because at the time we needed them. We really didnt know anything, we thought we did and was willing to learn more. As we learned to read the bible for ourselves, as we saw certain inconsistencies, as we learned, we also learned better.

I guarantee that this will happen to all of you. If it doesn’t happen, then you are not growing at all.

So what I think I’m saying is, even bad doctrine can be a stepping stone – but it’s only just that, a stepping stone.

With that in mind…

I was looking over my blog, and some things I wrote about years ago. I realized there’s some things I use to believe that, I don’t really disagree with anymore I just have a more advanced understanding of it now… So perhaps I should delete it right?

Well, I won’t. The reason is, just because I’ve learned better doesn’t mean someone else hasn’t. My own blog and my own word is not scripture – it’s evangelism… It’s me talking to the internet. I myself am no exception to this rule. Someone can always just be using me as a stepping stone, and one day grow up themselves.

The only thing that matters is, salvation is in Christ alone through faith alone. This fact is evident in scripture alone. If anyone says something different, they are just blatantly lieing to you. I have on my blog never said anything different, and I never will on that point.

 

Feet of Iron, Mixed with Clay 

Alot of people are familiar with King Nebuchadnezzar’s dream in the book of Daniel… but it’s plain to see that many havn’t put its interpretation together or really allowed it to sink in….

Any time a person is looking for continuity of ideas. Any time we are debating ideals and searching for a middle ground. Any time a politician says “bipartisanship” or “reach across the aisle” or “come to center”…. We are seeing someone who might understand the symptoms of the battle, but it hasn’t really registered with them. 

All they want is unity, in a world where unity is impossible.

We are in the last kingdom of the earth right now. If you think about the reason for our lack of continuity, it comes from all of us being very self educated people. We are not a monarchy society, rather a democracy. There isn’t a single time in history that every nation across he globe was a democracy. This period is represented well by king Nebuchadnezzar’s dream of kingdoms

….The feet and toes, partly of potter’s clay and partly of iron, it shall be a divided kingdom, but some of the firmness of iron shall be in it, just as you saw iron mixed with the soft clay.And as the toes of the feet were partly iron and partly clay, so the kingdom shall be partly strong and partly brittle. As you saw the iron mixed with soft clay, so they will mix with one another in marriage,but they will not hold together, just as iron does not mix with clay. Daniel 2:41-43

Another one of Daniel’s prophecy talks about us being very self educated people… Though you may also be aware Jesus said the same thing.

Daniel 12:
But you, Daniel, shut up the words and seal the book, until the time of the shall run to and fro, and knowledge shall increase.

If you find yourself ever trying to agree with someone, or get them to agree with you – remember this has been prophesied. If you are thinking this lack of “Unity” will ultimately lead to destruction on a global scale… Well your absolutely right… That would be the point. Just as Daniel concluded with the kings vision…

And in the days of those kings the God of heaven will set up a kingdom that shall never be destroyed, nor shall the kingdom be left to another people. It shall break in pieces all these kingdoms and bring them to an end, and it shall stand forever,just as you saw that a stone was cut from a mountain by no human hand, and that it broke in pieces the iron, the bronze, the clay, the silver, and the gold. A great God has made known to the king what shall be after this. The dream is certain, and its interpretation sure.” – Daniel 2: 44-45

As Christians, what do we do with this?

We ourselves are just as divided as Republicans and Democrats.

The only thing we can ever agree on is that we disagree. I think it’s best we only trust in what the bible says, nothing else man says or even says what the bible  says. That is the source of our only truth, in a chaotic world full of facts. 

Even on this conclusion, I know people will not understand what I’m saying or will profusely disagree. And so, Anyone who has an ear, let them hear me repeat myself. We have no unity, nor will we  until Jesus destroys all the kingdoms of the earth. It is inevitable one way or another. The very best you can do for yourself is pick the side of Jesus, or pick the side of the world. Anything in between these 2 extremes is chaos and confusion.  

Christian Anarchism

The kingdom of god is spiritual…. We have to be good people…. Both of these have a flaw – the very same flaw infact.

The kingdom of God is the people of God, doing our christian duty. You and me are the kingdom. It’s nothing more then a society in of itself. Not an otherworldly detached metaphor. Our duty is “The Great Commission”.

As scripture tells us also, we of ourselves can only sin continuously, any good work we do comes from the spirit. We in the kingdom of God are his vessels to the world, which is why we don’t really need a government or code of conduct to tell us what to do and how to act. We just allow the spirit to work through us, even against some or many of our own inner desires/instincts 😉

You may have noticed this is evident in the way a statist or legalists only feels comfortable in codes of conducts regulated by something other then themselves…. Like a government or even say a religion. They do not have enough faith in the spirit to work in themselves otherwise to remain even reasonably civilized. Even just the word ‘Anarchy’ scares them, from faith the size of a mustard seed. 

It is because of the model presented by Jesus himself, there can never be such a thing as A manmade “Christian Nation”. It is an oxymoron. You are either a christian, or you are with the world. Jesus alone is our only ruler, we can be servants to none other man made thinking. We needn’t look further then the Bible and the dictionary to discover that the rawest and most radical  expression of Christianity is inherently Anarchist.

an·ar·chism

ˈanərˌkizəm/noun belief in the abolition of all government and the organization of society on a voluntary, cooperative basis without recourse to force or compulsion