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Dear Elijah, This is how I met your mother… 

Let me start by saying, At the time of this writing you are 2 years old. I havnt even met you yet, but i just dropped your mother off so she can go to truck driving school. I am at a Werner drop yard down in Greensboro, NC talking to her on the phone as she makes her way back to your grandmother’s house in Hampton, VA…. But this letter is about how I met her and what we did when we first met. Someday you’ll read this, and hopefully you will love it. 

Where to begin… 

I suppose I should just start at the begining really. I was a rookie truck driver fresh out of training amd ready to go anywhere the road took me. That’s when my coolant began leaking at a truck stop in pensylvannia. It clearly needed repair, but my intuition told me to wait… and so I did. I received a load that sent me to Columbus Ohio, to which I thought I would get the truck fixed there… when I got there 2 things happened. First, the coolant wasn’t leaking at all anymore when I got to the mechanic. Second, I was given a very irregular load to South Boston, VA… it was a completely empty trailer, family dollar for some reason paid to have sealed and a BOL to be transferred some 800 miles away… to which never happens, and I Judy can’t help thinking it was a mix of paper work that brought me to meet her. … anyway… I get to South Boston, VA and spent the night at a truck stop. When I awoke the coolant was leaking all over the ground…. so I called dispatch to find a mechanic. They told me, the nearest place to get it fixed within 400 miles was a town called Greensboro, NC. So I stoped the load off and as fast as I could I drove down to the peterbuilt dealer. 

I got there on monday July 3rd at 11 am but the mechanic was closed for the 4th… they told me it needs a new radiator, and it will take time, the soonest they could get me out was Wensday afternoon…. BUT they had a hotel right next door with a pool and it was all on my company’s dime… so being stranded for repairs wasn’t so bad.  

Now that the Context is set… 



I met your mom on Facebook. She was in a dating group that I was in and she sent me a random friend request. This particular group had a lot of foreign girls in it, I thought she was from a whole different place… and yet what the heck.. I said hi to her anyway. 

According to your mother, she thought I was from Greensboro, NC. Since I tagged myself in some pictures of the hotel… She didn’t expect a truck driver from Buffalo, N.Y… between you and me, I suspect she just thought I was sexy. 

Anyway we got to talking that night, found we had alot of common interests and goals… then the conversation moved to us not doing anything for the fourth of July… She was working that night at a hospital. I was stuck in a hotel. Otherwise we just chit chatted really. The next day I messaged her again, we chit chated some more, next thing I know she was coming over to the hotel and i was buying IPA beer at a gas station so we can get drunk after she got out of work.

I didnt think she was actually coming over. At the same time I hated meeting her at a hotel… Then again I was wondering if this was a sleezy girl to be so willing to a guys hotel room with beer… despite all these reserves there was beer involved and as a gentleman I wasn’t going to make any moves on her. I intended, if she made any moves on me I would send her off asap and just go back to sleep. When she got there I had no idea what to expect and I kinda just thought it be better to take her to the hotels out door patio area. 

We drank and laughed all night long, I think untill there abouts 3 am. Your mom was a perfect lady and made a fine impression on me…. AND she certainly can handle her ale just fine….( I’ll tell you how to test a womans character later, if i hadnt already don’t let me forget. Beer is important)

She drove home completely drunk despite my offer to get her a seperate hotel room. (As a gentleman of course). According to her I found out later, she thought I ment stay in my room…. anyways…

 I woke up the next day with a hang over and a sunburn trudging into the mechanic shop to discover they were almost ready for me to take the truck. I checked out of the hotel, waited a bit while I texted her to make sure she got home ok and some chit chat… AND then I got my truck back!. It wasn’t long at all when I got a new load out in Virginia some place so I rolled out thinking I would never see this lovely lady again… yet it really didn’t bother me if I didn’t. She seemed like a cool person – nothing really stood out to me in particular. Maybe I will maybe not… 

After just 50 miles driving… I was leaking coolant again! So, I called dispatch, they cancelled my new load and i went back to Greensboro…. I texted your mom told her what happened. This time I was just going to sleep in the truck at a nearby rest area then go to the mechanic the next morning. Your mom had mentioned she wanted to paint her kitchen… I had nothing to do that day, so I offered to help her. 

She gave me her address, and when I looked at her street from satellite view on Google maps, I figured I could bobtail there…. though because of hours of service regulations I would have to park there over night. So I explained this to her, and if she doesn’t feel comfortable with me sleeping in her house I can sleep in the truck… She didn’t understand HOS, but she was cool either way. I got started painting her kitchen for her,  she left me alone in her house while she went to work….. While she was gone, I went too the grocery store and made her speghetti 😀 We chit chated more and more, and I ended up sleeping on her couch after a movie. 

I woke up again the next day, and made me and her some Matcha. I didn’t have to go to the mechanic right away, and by this point I liked your mom and wanted to hang out with her! 

When I left for the mechanic, the new leak was an easy fix. The guy literally just went under the truck and tightened 1 screw. The Problem was solved…. until i drove 100 miles away that is and the coolant was leaking once more…. 

This was when it hit me… there was something very special about her…

I had full confidence in this mechanic, despite this being the third time it broke with the same issue. They had very good reviews, i spoke with several owner operators there whom only go there…. the shop didn’t strike me as having poor integrity. I knew they were the type to take pride in their work and always make sure things were done right the first time…. but a voice in my head said, this isn’t about the truck, it’s about her. While I considered these things, i told the mechanic “I know you guys are good people, just do what you gotta do”…. He looked at me as if I insulted him somehow – he didn’t know what I knew whats going on behind the scenes of course…. Either way I just left it at that… 

Once again I called your mom. She laughed that the truck was broken again and invited me over once more. I stayed the night slept on the couch. Once more I made matcha in the morning then rolled out to the mechanic…. 

It was finally fixed

Little buddy, this is important, because this is how god works. This is when you know you are being lead to green pastures or perhaps being gifted a gift. Through all these break downs, followed by only a $50 paycheck for the week sure I could have gotten upset. But by hearing God’s voice and seeing the situation I was in, how all this played out… I knew full well at this point that your mother would become my wife…. and I wasn’t even in love with her yet, nor do I ascribe to “love at first sight”…. I just knew and all my instincts just adjusted to what I knew…. and it’s when I came to just knowing this, the truck worked perfectly fine again…..  Do not ignore these things in your own life. These are the little signs and signals you should always watch for and you will see how God sets the stage up for something wonderful to happen. Never be too distracted to listen carefully and you will hear him and see his hand at work for yourself in your own life. 🙂  

I Came back

From Greensboro, NC I rolled the truck all around only to schedual my hometime in Greensboro the very next week. I chated with your mom quite a bit while I was out, and I really liked her… So why not come back and have some fun with her I thought…

Your mom on the other hand, had another idea…. That is, instead of me taking her someplace fun, we do a paper bag floor in her laudry room…. Being a gentleman, I went along with this, and it turned out to be alot of fun anyway. We sat on the floor all night drinking beer ripping paper, glueing it to the floor, followed by staining…. the entire time I was flirting with her, but I don’t think she caught my advances. Also, the whole time I just wanted to hug her and kiss her on that floor, but it didn’t seem like the right moment – I probably should have then, now that I think about it…. 

Our first kiss

Your mom is the type of girl who doesnt  realize when a guy is flirting with her.  Such woman needs a kiss in such cases or it goes way over their heads and all you end up as is “just friends”…. 

When she brought me back to the truck I packed up my stuff as she was getting ready to rush out of there… I stoped her and asked; “Do you need anything”.

She was rushing over to her car, scrambling off to work and told me no… when I walked over and told her “I need something, just don’t hold it against me”… then I pecked her on the lips softly… 

She pulled away smiling, nervous, and in a rush… pulled her hair back over her ear and just said as she opened her car door. “I won’t hold it against you”. Nervously, she  jumped in and speed off as quick as she could…

So I caught her off guard, but I figured someone had to break the ice and if she hated me for it, well… I don’t have to see her again anyways so no harm done… My thinking was, She’ll either fall for me or run away I was fine with both outcomes…. when she speed off the way she did I thought she was just nervous, but worried I miss read her and she was actually angry… So I waited about an hour…

She texted me… 

And she wasn’t angry at all 🙂 

Dispatch sent me on a fantastic run

When I left I was sent all the way to the northern tip of Michigan, then back south to indiana. Then west all the way to Sandiego, CA. I spent a great deal of time in the desert along route 40 and 10 during that trip taking pictures of all the beautiful landscapes in Oklahoma, New Mexico and Arizona… meanwhile holding 5 – 6 hour phone calls with your mom and sending her pictures…. it seemed I had caught her attention….

Meanwhile when I wasn’t on the phone with her I prayed about her…. I think towards the end of that run I took serious consideration of your mother… I already knew God was setting me up with her. I already knew we had many common goals and interests.. and i also already knew, she and I would make a great couple…. what i didnt know was if she was ready to commit to me… and so I just thought about these things while I hiked around the desert in Arizona and kept my thoughts to myself..  

While i was on my way back to North Carolina, She told me she wanted to get a CDL and team drive with me…. I had to double take on this she caught me off guard. Infact I didn’t believe her at first though my heart was sinking hearing this…. It took a couple days of her telling me this that I figured out she’s was being serious…. 

I called Werner told them what she wanted and if the company could have me as her trainer after her truck school…. I was told I needed to have 6 months experience before then. As it worked out… when she would be done with school and got her license I would have 6 months 😀 after training it can be arranged that we team drive, I just gotta call my guy Scott at recruiting and he will set everything up, including a brand new truck. 😀

Your mother was thrilled, and began shopping for a truck school. You being very important, she had be around her family in Hampton, VA so that someone can baby sit you…. Though I tried to convince her to go to a better school I knew of in Florida and perhaps I could get a baby sitter there… The fact is, your mother knew what’s best. I’m sire the school she picked is just fine… I only wanted her to go to what i knew was the best, and with people I knew would take betty good care of her.
Road Trip

Your mom had another surprise for me. She told me she wanted to quit her job leave you with grandma, and roll around in the truck with me for 2 weeks… What a woman I thought, and how can I say no? Also, with 3 days off before we rolled out, I could finally start properly courting her. 

Our first date

I found a place in town: “Kersey Valley” and bought a couple tickets for an escape the room game in a haunted mansion. BUT it wasn’t until later that night so we had time to kill… I treated her to breakfast at a really cool looking coffee shop called “The Green Bean”. We spent all morning there drinking coffee and chatting about nothing in particular. She really wanted to show me this park in town, and so after a good while we left to see it. It was a beautiful botanical garden park, adjacent to another park that was a swamp. We walked around, nervously flirting with each other and taking in the beautiful flowers, statues, and old buldings… We sat on a swing bench, where I wanted to kiss her once again, but I held back seeing how tense she was… this garden was overwhelmingly romantic, I think your mom didn’t know and was worried it would overwhelm me in someway.. and here is when I found out your momma was a pervert – asking me all kinds of sex questions… I just laughed and answered her, but I took it as she clearly likes me 😉 but I could see it was also nervous tension…  

We walked over to the other park that was a swamp with a boardwalk. It was also very pretty with ducks and the kind of rustic charm I love about North Carolina…. As it is though, we still had time to kill so I found a craft beer shop near the coffee place, bought us a 6 pack of mix match beers, then we went window shopping in some of the craft shops…. 

While we were walking down Elm st. Going no where in particular your mom was hungry and i saw a sushi restraunt. So I asked her if she ever had real sushi… She told me no, but please don’t spend so much money on her…. Bullocks I thought, so grabbed her by the hand and ran across the street to feed her…. We were the only 2 people in that restraunt, I got us a dragon roll and avacodo roll, green tea, and hibachi…. Your mother, was so modest looking at the prices on the menu… I had to keep telling her “Don’t worry about it, you gotta let me upgrade you a little bit”. She smiled, and said ok you can upgrade me. After dinner, we had another hour to kill, we went back to the truck to drop the beer off and move some things around to get her settled in… then we went off to our haunted mansion adventure…. We had a great time even though we failed to escape the room. There were ghosts, and puzzles, things jumping out at us, clues, fog machines and black lights… By the time we got back to the truck we were so tired we fell asleep.

Let me just say this now. I am a perfect gentleman…. I insisted on sleeping on the top bunk seperate from your mom. 

The next day we went back to the coffee shop for breakfast, I had to provision while in town and we just went around town buying food to stock up on and beer. Later that night we got drunk in the truck listening to music… I handed your mom my phone and told her to show me some country music songs she likes….

See I’m a Yankee city boy, I don’t listen to country music… and I figured she would know some of the best of it… sure enough she did. This was the first song she picked for me, “Cruise” by: Georgia-Florida State Line…. AND I LOVED IT:

As the night went on, I could see her serenading me with YouTube… I took the phone and began serenading back at her, and we just went back and forth with each other with love songs…. I was falling in love with her very quickly… yet at the same time I felt as if I knew her forever…. BUT it was also hot so I took my shirt off… Your mom being the pervert she is looked at my shorts and told me “You must have a really big dick”. I laughed blushing, realizing my buldge was rather obvious through the shorts I was wearing… I sat down and made fun of her.. 

That night when we went to sleep together in the same bed cuddleing each other. I thought about her and me… I thought about you and thinking how I could raise a kid. I thought about our first kiss, the song she played for me… how much I liked her, how much we have in common, how much we have the same goals. I thought about her temperment, and how well we could be as team drivers. I thought about what could go wrong here what’s her flaws and can I see myself putting up with her for weeks at a time…. I prayed on these things and I just heard God’s voice telling me, “She is perfect for you, Im giving her to you, take care of her she’s yours”

… I just felt so perfect with her. I knew she would be mine and all I had to do was kiss her and we could make love right there… but I waited. And I don’t really know why I waited… but I did… it just didn’t feel like the right moment. So all these considerations I kept in my heart and fell sleep as she was caressing my hand with her velvet like fingers. 

The last day on my time off we just sat around the truck not doing anything in particular besides drinking more beer… that night… I had it my mind, it was stupid for me to wait and As we cuddled I began makeing out with her…. As our clothes were starting to come off and I began to get in her panties your mom pushed me off…. I knew she wanted it, she knew I wanted it…. But, she had too much integrity as a lady should. She told me I havnt had a woman in over 5 years, why break it now, especially considering what sex ment to me and she couldn’t be the one…. I heard her, and I myself knew i was ready for her and commit to her… but she didn’t know it… 

I wasn’t angry about it, I just rolled over and tried to get my mind off sex while I fell asleep… 

The next day when we woke up, I told her I understand if she wants to leave now, but this is her last chance I can’t stop for 2 weeks… I felt a little guilty about making my move the night before, and I was relieved she didn’t seem to think anything of it when she told me “Lets go”. 

We rolled out of the drop yard 
  

Little buddy I won’t lie to you even though your mom says I should, and maybe she’s right… We didn’t wait very long at all… I rolled out, drove around North Carolina a bit and at the end of my shift we stopped at I-26 SB rest area at mile marker 41… we did some macramae, watched true blood and cuddled… and the way your mom kept touching my back and caressing my hair…. We started making out all over again. As I was kissing her in my mind I cried out to god asking “Should I Lord take this woman” and i heard him tell me “yes, she is yours I gave her to you”… it was just then she told me she can’t resist me this time and I asked her… “Will you be my girl” she nodded and so I continued to make love to her, and it was a beautiful thing. 

She was the first woman I did anything with for 5 years since my Christian conversion, and I intended there and then to be completely hers. I wasn’t ready yet to say “I love you”…. and i told her this when she had asked… OH but I was falling very hard, this woman was in my every dream for weeks to come. I knew we would be a perfect couple, and I knew God had already blessed us as a couple. 

Then there is her son

As I am writing this, you may have noticed you were not anywhere in this story… so I just thought I would take a moment to touch on it. Your mom had made arrangements with your grandmother to watch you for a month while she was getting her house furnished and ready for you to move in when I met her… Also she wanted to find a day care, etc etc all kinds of things had to be set up that any parent would have to put together. I don’t know too many details, I just know she had only just moved there. But this is why I hadnt met you yet. I’ve seen pictures of you and had alot of questions about you of course, and I wasn’t nervous about the obvious conclusion I would be your step dad…. Your mom wanted me to meet you when I got back to Greensboro, however she came up with the idea to get a CDL instead – just as the ball rolled when that box of worms opened, the timing wasn’t right…. your mother and I both really felt it was more important at the moment to get her truck driving ASAP… Don’t get me wrong, I am eager to meet you… We’ve already made plans on what were doing when I finally do… things are just up in the air with many changes at the moment and there’s a lot of logistics we have to work out. 

In our 2 week run

Falling in love is like this…. We did so much for 2 weeks it felt like forever, and yet it’s all such a blur. As I sit here writing this, i struggle to remember, yet at the same time I don’t know how to summarize it…. perhaps it’s too soon and it all hasnt sunk in yet. The butterflies your mom left in my heart are blinding me from anything besides how much I miss her now that’s she’s left…. I want her so badly with me right now, but she’s gone back to Hampton, VA to begin truck school. So I will have to continue our journey into love in another article, in the meantime I’ll give you this summary. 

We cuddled ALOT. We drank ALOT. We ate out ALOT. We took hikes in the woods at various parts of the country ALOT, we Kissed ALOT. We held hands ALOT. We prayed ALOT, and we taught each other alot…. We did alot

and I knew that I loved her when we kissed in the South Carolina summer sunlight. In a forest clearing on a blanket by a stream. 

She gave me this song… and I knew it’s a song from her heart that I will treasure always

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Me and You: the story of us

Since you decided to do your diary while out with me – followed by letting me read it… I decided to do something similar. Though pardon me for leaving your name out of this letter, you know who you are and I wasn’t sure how you felt about your name mentioned on the internet. I’m writing this right now as your asleep here in my truck. I’m reflecting on what we’ve been through, how I felt…. deep in thought and reflection I know in my heart I’m in love with you, and you are the one that I’ve been waiting for. Yet as I write this I confess I am still cautious, and perhaps for no good reason. Here may be a problem for you, I am a writer – I fear this letter will be too long for you…. I apologize profusely but I can’t help it – though I’ll try to keep this short as I recall how I came to my feelings for you. 

 Finding you

I am not a man who believes in coincidences – and given the circumstances that lead me to you, I am certain only a fool can deny God played his hand. As I sit here searching on where to begin, I suppose I should only start with the girl in Kenya- as her role was critical for this tale. 

I was just beginning to give up on ever finding a good woman. But I met this Girl on Occupied. We talked on Skype and while I enjoyed our conversations and learning about Kenya along with her culture – it was plain to see a relationship with her wasn’t and would never go anywhere. She added me to a Facebook group called “Love sees no color” – of which I actually paid little attention to. Many girls messaged me on Facebook from that group and yet you were the only one I even talked to longer then a simple “hello, how are you”. And so with that this is where the real story begins. 

It begins in Ohio. I picked up a load in Ohio, took it somewhere around freindsville pensylvannia then went to bed at a petro off highway 80. (Perhaps too much detail). When I awoke I discovered a huge pool of coolant under the truck and that was when my break down troubles began. Normally, I would have reported it right away and had it fixed – yet for some reason all my instincts told me to wait and fix it later… It was like an urge free from reason I can not describe… I just knew I had to leave it alone for now and so I simply added more coolant for the time being. 

My next load sent me to Columbus Ohio down to South Boston where I was assigned a very unusual Family Dollar load from Columbus, OH to South Boston, VA. When I arrived at the DC in Columbus the guard shack told me he did not have paperwork for the load… I only had 30 mins left on my clock, and so I told them I would come back the next day. I stayed at Loves overnight near there it had rained that night. When I awoke I checked under the truck for a coolant leak, yet there was nothing at all on the ground… I was a bit perplexed and thought perhaps the rain washed it away – or perhaps it simply wasn’t leaking anymore. In any case I called the mechanic there to look at it right quick as I had planned to do anyway. He found nothing wrong at all and so I went back to the Family Dollar DC. 

The guard shack had just received a phone call when I pulled in, that the paper work for this load was in shipping and receiving office and he told me I was to go there. So I did…. here is where it’s got odd. The load was an empty trailer with a seal on the door… yet all the paperwork suggested it was like any regular load that just so happens to be empty. This load perplexed everyone, the Family Dollar dc manager, dispatch, the guard shack, myself… it was just highly irregular for an empty trailer to have a BOL and a seal, but we all went along with it anyway since there wasn’t anything illegal about it…. well anyway. I drove down 81 where late that day my coolant began leaking again…. determined to get that load in, I decided to wait just once more to report it. I drove maybe an hour or so, to a pilot near south Boston…. and there I discovered I was in the middle of no where. 

Maintenance told me the only place I could get it fixed within 400 miles was the  peterbuilt dealer in Greensboro, NC. I discussed with her the plan to drop this trailer off real quick and bobtail down there the next day. I arrived there Monday 07/03 11 am, and they told me the trick needed a new radiator and that they were closed for the 4th of July, so I will have to wait until wensday to pick the truck up. I got the hotel nearby and figured I would just tan a bit and swim in the pool for 2 days… Maybe order Chinese food later get a good night’s sleep for once after a brutal week… and not too much more. 

And Then We Met..
After swimming I sat in my hotel room nibbling a cliff bar waiting on Chinese food. I checked facebook, when i saw you freind requested me…. i thought you were another african girl from love sees no color… and i said to myself.. why not chat with her a bit, I have plenty of time and the pools closed anyway.. So we commenced with small talk – though you got my attention when you told me you live in Greensboro…. You REALLY got my attention when I told you my plan of living on a Boat, and you told me you were ok with this idea….. Seriously, every woman I ever talked to shut me down right about there in conversation. I was shocked… Infact my heart leaped into my throat as I had no words to say. Then we proceded to talking about your chicken coop and other random things.

The next day you and I planned on getting beer and hanging out at the hotel for 4th of July. I felt odd having to meet you in a hotel but I was relieved seeing your poise and dignity about it. We got drunk had a few lols and I sent you home…. Here which is where I thought our story would end. 

Then I broke down again. And spent the night at your house painting your kitchen. Then I broke down again, only to end up back at your place once more…. At this point it hit me, as I told you, and I knew our story was only just beginning. The spirit inside me told me so. 

I Came Back 

The truck was fixed eventually and I was sent all over the country, only to come back to you on my weekend off. We talked and texted while I was out. Then we did a paper bag floor in your mud room…. I was very nervous, because the entire time you were leaning on me on that floor I just wanted to hold you and kiss you. I felt as if I’ve known you forever. And then I left when you surprised me once more.

You told me you wanted to quit your job, and start trucking with me…. My heart stoped. I needed a double take on this idea, I couldn’t believe it… But I’m glad you came along, and I think you’ll make an excellent cowgirl as well as a mother. If anyone tells you different, let me know I’ll punch them in the face. 

So I came back again to pick you up and whisp you away and here we are… Your still sleeping soundly at this rest area in the back of my truck at the moment of this writing. As I write our story here, my head is swimming over the details of how this worked out. I know for a fact right now, I want to be your king and make you my queen. 

Where my thoughts are now 

When I gave myself to you it wasnt a drunken stupper lustful moment.. I am not so mentally weak of a man and I do nothing without much consideration and prayer. I knew full well you were the gal I want well before hand. Though I can see you still guard your heart, and I sense you are still nervous about me sometimes. To which I am patient as it’s well worth the wait. We tell ourselves to take things slow and yet it’s hard to considering I feel like I’ve known you forever. I havnt met your son yet, though I myself am not nervous about that – but I sense you are…. perhaps I can ease your mind in someway by saying this: You wouldn’t be the woman I am falling in love with if not for your son. He shaped you and influenced you into the woman you are today. How then can I not love this child, knowing he is apart of you? My only fear moving forward with you is knowing one day he will know I am not his father…. But that’s a long way away and we can deal with it as it comes. Otherwise its peripheral, and yet I’m glad one of us atleast has a head start experience in parenting 🙂  I’ve only ever been an uncle – and a damn good one at that! This role of fatherhood both scares and excites me, (more so excites). Otherwise, the timing to meet your son just hasn’t been right. What were doing, getting you into truck driving, I think is much more a priority at the present moment. The time with him will be right soon enough.

I have traveled to many places, I’ve met many woman and learned many things about many things, only to become jaded as it all looks alike anymore… I can say with certainty, YOU truly are an Emerald. Very rare, very beautiful, and 3 times more valuable then the standard issue diamond. Just as the emerald, most people dont realize it’s worth and often cast it aside or take it for granted. They look for mere diamonds and often settle for coal anyway. However, there are those who can recognize a good investment…. I want to invest everything I have and am into you. I am completely yours if you’ll have me. 

Christian Dating… phase I

Since I became Christian about 5 years ago I have enjoyed the single life and with that of course celibacy. In that, I think I have gotten very comfortable being single. I did not realize how much so until I decided to start dating again these past couple months. So, as a writer I’m just going to talk about my experience. 

First Girl

The first girl I met at the grocery store. I just made small talk with her about organic smoothies. She seemed interested so then I asked her if she was up to go to a juice bar. Of a truth I was well outside my comfort zone, but I just acted like it was the most normal thing in the world to pick up a girl. I figured this wouldn’t go anywhere anyway, but it’s a practice run so what the heck. To my surprise she said yes and asked if I could drop her off at her house first to put away groceries. Sure, why not….

 That’s when I discovered she was a slut, and I was a celibate Christian man. I was driving and talking, when she reached over to my ‘stick shift’. She told me then, we don’t have to go to the juice bar and that she feels like getting naked at her place. I was offended, but I just maintained composure and stoped talking. Took her to her house, and as a gentleman I carried in her groceries, then left her. 

Second Girl

Second girl I found online. She had nothing to do today, so I asked her if she wouldn’t mind coffee. So we met at spot coffee. I bought our drinks and food of course being a gentleman. As we started talking she pulled out her phone and looked at my profile…. At this point I kinda felt as if I were in a job interview while she reviewed my application. She asked me about this or that on my profile and I gave her answers of course. Though this was unusual, i thought i was doing good so far. Then she came to “Taxation is Theft” and asked about it as if it were a bad thing. So I explained to her how she is the owner the product of her labour, and how the government views her as their property- and therefore entitled to the product of her labour- so really taxation isn’t just theft it’s also slavery. She looked at me shocked and stunned, completely mortified even… I was a little bit surprised with her reaction, I only ever talk to people who think taxation is theft, she is the first person in a long time who ever said to my face; “Taxation isn’t theft and I’m weird”…. So I was like, whatever, I’ll just get my food to go then and left. 

Third Girl

The next girl I met at a pet store. She loved fish, and – if you can’t tell by the name of my blog site (I’m big on fish tanks too). She had 15 aquariums at home, to which I was amazed. I had to see this for myself, so I invited my self over, and she was thrilled at the idea of showing them off. Sure enough she had a house full of fish tanks, and she was telling me all about the different systems she set up as I marveled at her extreme nerdyness. When I was done with the tour I asked her if she would like to go to the aquarium in Baltimore with me. She was very excited about the idea, though it was a 7 hour drive…. 

In my mind a 7 hour drive isn’t that far, and here is where I realized I’ve been single doing my own thing way too long. I kind of thought it’s a great way to get to know someone… I almost forgot, Normal people don’t like to drive 7 hours to places, who knew right…  However that’s about where I lost her. 

She seemed like she wanted to go out with me, so we talked about different places instead that were closer. On on hand i could she was a very indescive person, on the other hand I could see this conversation spiraling into nothing – so I just put it out there to the bottom line; “Just pick anywhere you would like to go, and I’ll pay for it.” – Now what is wrong with that? Make it tommorrow or the next day, whatever and whenever is fine with me. So she gave me her number and said she will get back to me as she sent me on my way. 

I waited a few days and texted her, and we are still chating on and off…. This girl will make an appearance again in Phase 2 😉 

Fourth Girl

So then I went to a different church that had a coffee chit chat time. And I found a nice girl there, atleast I thought. She seemed to be a bit more flamboyant then most church girls, so I asked her if she ever went to Church in a Pub. She never heard of it, so I explained it’s like a bible study but at a pub. There is a pastor who does it downtown at pearl street brewery. She said well, it’s beer though and she didn’t want to become an alcoholic – and that I’m going to hell because I’m involved with it…. Well I’m not involved with it, I just heard of it and otherwise didn’t have an excuse to go… BUT anyway, she then proceeded to explain to me that alcohol is inherently satanic and anyone who drinks it deserves to go to hell…. In my mind, I was thinking Jesus first miracle was turning water into wine- and everything she was saying may as well be blah blah blah… despite this i asked if she wanted to go out for coffee instead. Sure – great, and off we went to the coffee shop. 

It seemed the foundation was already laid and not going to go anywhere. The flamboyant little doll I had met, suddenly became an evil church lady – picking me apart and analyzing all my sins. And she had only just met me…. Being christian I just told her that Indeed I have many sins, vod knkws all of them – however I am very devoted to my relationship with him, and scripture says he will take me anyway as I am. She got angry and said something, which I completely ignored- and I told her Thankfully my salvation is not contingent on her approval, that’s when I got up and left before she had a chance to say anything. 

Fifth Girl

Then I met another girl online, she loved animals and things, so I told her I have tickets to the zoo tommorrow, I was going to go with a friend but he cancelled… (yes this was a lie, but anyway). She liked the idea and we agreed to meet up. I showed up early so I could buy 2 tickets before she got there. So we get into the zoo, look around and talked about different things. Then I went to the bathroom… She snuck in to the men’s room, came from behind and grabbed my crotch as I was peeing. Again my first instinct was of course sure, let’s do this in the bathroom At the zoo! Then I remembered myself, pushed her back and left. 

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 Phase 1 complete

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All of that was just about my first week or so picking up girls… I figured, I don’t seem to have a problem getting girls at all. It’s getting one for longer then one day that’s a problem…. So I think my mistake was rolling them out on a conveyer belt, and perhaps rushing things, whilst trying to follow a standardized procedure. At the same time, I don’t think it was a mistake – it was just practice dating anyway. Getting my feet wet and testing the market of what I was dealing with in this war zone…. And indeed, it’s a war zone as I discovered in the next phase.  

Continue to Phase 2

Why I am not against the Communist Christians

I have a christian anarchist group which is compiled of every kind of anarchist. Naturally with mixed company, people are bound to disagree – some so fervently they exile it altogether.In this group there is maybe 2 or 3 communists who actually post something against capitalism. Out of, oh 2000 anarch-capitalists I’m probably of the handful of who posts something about how great capitalism is…. Yet 2000 people get all riled up about how there’s communists in the group.

I’ve spoken with the communists about their views. Of course, they were all to happy to explain themselves. With consideration and respect I can’t help at disagree of course myself. However I can see very plainly they carry the spirit of christ about as much as the capitalists and therefore they are my brothers/sisters regardless. I am very much a capitalist, But I am first and foremost christian. Here’s the the bottom line of what I know for an absolute fact. Neither type of anarchy, communism or capitalism, will prevail in this world anyway – Scripture guarantees it, It’s almost a pointless argument.

We as Christians are here to wait for christ to rip down all of earth’s kingdoms and establish his millennial kingdom. In the meantime, we are like the Jews wondering in the wilderness. Frankly, what that entails, I’d like to think its a capitalist kingdom, but I’m open to being proven wrong. Until that day we all find out for sure, excuse me if I’m more interested in talking about the gospel.

Yes actually communism can work in millennial kingdom.

Oh sure, communism has failed miserably in times past. However it can not be ignored, scripture promises us each a mansion to be given to us. We will never thirst or hunger – so we can look past the possibility of bread lines. Jesus will be king of the kingdom – in itself makes ‘Christian Anarchism’ an oxymoron. Certainly, communism has failed in a imperfect world, but christ promises us he will make a perfect world.

….Then again, all of this can equally be achieved via capitalism. Yes labor has been exploited even under the name “Free Market”.  Certainly, corporations have and can replace the state – in fact the current president of America views the state as such a corporation that needs to be more efficient. Just as the communists so often contend, there is flaws in capitalism as well, though this is neo-conservativism/liberalism not anarch capitalism…. Again we are in a imperfect world. Capitalism can be perfected in Christ kingdom as it has just as much failed as communism in many regards. There are even things to be doubtful of Ludwig Von Mises’s presented model. The problem both sides know and fear is that, authority always has a way of centralizing itself. Whether socialist or capitalist – this is central to our dilemma.

Who knows – maybe we’ll find out the Anarch-Primitives had it right this whole time and were all wrong…

Since I’m thinking about Moses…

With that said, I’m reminded of something Moses said to the Israelite’s. After he discovered they were worshiping the golden cow. They broke out in argument with each other and immediately began splitting up. Those who wanted to follow the cow, and those who wanted to wonder around with Moses.

Moses shouted to the people who stood by him:

“Lay Them Waste

And they slathered those who wanted to follow the cow….

I look at the members in my Facebook group who want to leave, just because there’s 2 or 3  communists who posted about communism or capitialist said this and that. I can’t help at wonder if this would be the same reaction if Jesus said when he establishes his kingdom “We’re going to be a communist society”.  Yet I should say the same for the communists who get themselves in a uproar over the capitalist out come…. My heart would be grieved if christ gave me just such an order as Moses on that day – that I should have to boot a person out of his kingdom just over economic policy. Though, I don’t think it will come to that.

The last fact is, both of these ideas are man made and founded entirely by unashamed and fervent Athiests. Karl Marx, David Gaeber, Ayn Rand, Ludwig Mises – all of them made it no secrete they despise Christianity. Why were even listening to them is hypocrisy in of it self. Neither capitalist or communist knows what to expect when Christ’s kingdom comes, we can only follow in Christ’s general direction as far as ideals. We ourselves are not going to be the authors of his constitution – and I’m fairly sure he has something entirely different in mind.

Stop your bickering and just promote what you believe, not complain about what you disagree with in the meantime. My fellow capitalists I am ashamed in how sensitive you can be considering your the majority anyway :-/

The Greatest Sinner – a prayer 

“A certain moneylender had two debtors. One owed five hundred denarii, and the other fifty. When they could not pay, he cancelled the debt of both. Now which of them will love him more?”Simon answered, “The one, I suppose, for whom he cancelled the larger debt.” And he said to him,“You have judged rightly.”- Luke 7: 41 – 43

This short parable, is so telling about me. I am the man who owes 500 denarii… 5000 denarii more likely. My sins are so many, and even after I am forgiven still I fight with myself.  

I am proud and boastful – downright arrogant. I burn with lust nearly every night Insufferably. I am slothful and indifferent. I lack manners or concern for others feelings…. I go to God and pray constantly to heal this side me, I hold back as best I can in life. I pray the spirit works in me away these things… Yet I am but a mild improvement after many years…. I am a man, that’s all I can be. 

Yet I’m told by some regardless of my belief in Christ I’m doomed to hellfire. I’m told I do not have the best of fruits of the spirit,  therefore I do not carry it at all – but it only strengthens my faith. While my sins are many – foolishness is thankfully not one of them. 

Thank you God for grace, even for a wretched creature like me. Thank you for not judging me the way people do. Thank you for telling me you will take me as I am and make me someday perfect. I know for certain I can have faith in none other to want me. I am truely humbled, and exalt your mercy. My aligence and my service is in you. If it’s deemed not good enough, I desire your wrath as I truely deserve it.

I know until it’s proven, to no one’s doubt, my name is in the book of life, my flesh will be gone and my spirit can only cling to you. I can do no other, and I’m grateful thats all you ask of me. Amen  
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Easy Believeist 

In all the years I have been a christian. I have maintained that scripture is the only reliable source of information. In my walk, I believed that so much I have only rested my understanding based on what I’ve read in scripture, with very minimal input from the world….
That said, let me tell you what I’ve just discovered about myself that I didn’t know before….

I am an Easy Believeist 🙂

I don’t believe you should say the sinners prayer to be saved. I believe that you should do it because you believe it is the truth. I believe that Jesus did infact live and die then resurrected, for our sins for anyone who believes on him can have eternal life. I also believe the moral law is not a command, it is an instructor.

My views and my conscience is only bound to the word of God. To say something contrary to scripture, for me is just unthinkable…. I can not to the best of my knowledge even want to lie. If I am in error, I believe I must be corrected and shown indefinitely why I am wrong based on scripture alone or just plain reason that is based on scripture alone.

I have sat with many easy Believeist like myself and found something interesting. We all have the same story to tell. We all started from some legalistic church or another, whom told us over and over to read the Bible…. Unfortunately for them, we did read the bible and saw very plainly what was wrong with thier theology as we grew in Christ.

So that’s me and what I’ve discovered about myself.

To The Gay Christian

The subject of can a gay person even be christian is something I find… shallow. some cases its a deep seeded hatred, more often sheer ignorance of certain truths. I myself am not one to pander, nor have any good thing to say about the LGBT so called ‘community’. Rather my interest is in the individual seeking christ or simply comfort in a world full of mixed political agendas.

Yes of course you can be gay and a christian. More than that, let me give you some meat on the subject so you understand where scripture is coming from on this position…. It’s not so much there’s strings attached, it’s just I myself am a rationalist – and if you are too, I gather you also want something better then a “feel good message”. The best way to confront this issue is just the facts of scripture, in order as scripture explains the issue. Most people don’t really like facts of the matter, but rest assured I won’t spare you from the simple truth. I’ll be using the ESV Bible, though if you prefer KJV is also recommended

I’m not very good at feel good messages, so I wont bother:

You shall not lie with a male as with a woman; it is an abomination. – Leviticus 18:22

Here we see the law as it is written. What is interesting is the way it’s worded ‘you shalt not lie with a male as with a woman’. Right here at the beginning were not talking about homosexuality parse, more like bisexuality. Ask yourself this, if you are married to a woman, why are you screwing other men? Or for the matter if you are gay guy married to another guy, why are you sleeping with woman?

The word choice for this is I think something we already know about the bible. Relationships are about monogamy. but theres more to this. Look at the dictionary for the definition of abomination:

abomination: a thing that causes disgust or hatred a feeling of hatred.
The bible in general, monogamy aside, talks a great deal about love…. One thing very noticeable about heterosexual marriages is – there’s a special kind of disgust from the wife when she learns her husband cheated on her with men instead of other woman. In this word ‘abomination’ I think we see that point illustrated.
Monogamy in general is about stability in a persons life. In regards to bisexual so called ‘identity’, it’s irrelevant really. You are either with someone or your not. This same law is reiterated later…. But if I may expand the context, as it’s particularly relevant in the case of adultry as the law describes the punishments for adultry:
“If a man commits adultery with the wife of his neighbor, both the adulterer and the adulteress shall surely be put to death. If a man lies with his father’s wife, he has uncovered his father’s nakedness; both of them shall surely be put to death; their blood is upon them. If a man lies with his daughter-in-law, both of them shall surely be put to death; they have committed perversion; their blood is upon them. If a man lies with a male as with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination; they shall surely be put to death; their blood is upon them. If a man takes a woman and her mother also, it is depravity; he and they shall be burned with fire, that there may be no depravity among you. If a man lies with an animal, he shall surely be put to death, and you shall kill the animal…… Leviticus 20: 10-15
So basically what you should get out of this is, if you are a gay christian there will be no sausage parties for you! But the fact remains, the law isnt about homosexuality. It’s about all the ways a person can commit Adultry. That is all, nothing more.

David and Jonathan

This gets brought up a lot, and of course your average legalist will deny it profusely. The thing is, scripture is in no way unclear – these 2 were not just ‘best friends’, and like I said before I don’t know how to make something sound…. ‘better’… so I won’t bother.

1 Samuel 18 – 22 can only be described as a ‘Broke Back Mountain’ style love story. I encourage a gay christian to read it in full for themselves, I’m just going to pick out the nuts and bolts that illustrate the point scripture is conveying.

As soon as he had finished speaking to Saul, the soul of Jonathan was knit to the soul of David, and Jonathan loved him as his own soul. And Saul took him that day and would not let him return to his father’s house. Then Jonathan made a covenant with David, because he loved him as his own soul. And Jonathan stripped himself of the robe that was on him and gave it to David, and his armor, and even his sword and his bow and his belt. And David went out and was successful wherever Saul sent him, so that Saul set him over the men of war. And this was good in the sight of all the people and also in the sight of Saul’s servants. – 1 Samuel 18: 1-5

Right at the start scripture isnt holding back

“The soul of Jonathon was knit to the soul of David”

Next we see:

“saul wont let him (david) return to his fathers house”

Next

“Jonathon made a covenant with David”

followed by

“Jonathan stripped himself of the robe that was on him and gave it to David, and his armor, and even his sword and his bow and his belt”

This is a biblical gay wedding my friend. the real giveaway is “Soul knit to the soul of david” – This is how the bible poetically describes marriage – not just in this case, but in every case people are getting married. The other giveaway is that they made a “Covenant” – the word covenant is a big deal in scripture, and indeed also refers to a marriage agreement. And whats really telling is David is not allowed to return to his fathers house… When 2 people are married, they live with each other. we see all of this very language earlier in genesis

Therefore a man shall leave his father and his mother and hold fast to his wife, and they shall become one flesh. -Genesis 2:24

Keep in mind, this is a royal wedding. of course it’s in front of the entire kingdom. Everyone saw the wedding of David and Jonathon, and considered a good thing at the end. The thing is…. This foundation is very important because it wasnt some deep dark secrete David and Jonathan were an item.

Saul, the king, absolutely hated David…. Traditionally, interpreted because David was so much better at fighting in war then he was. But examine the story a bit more closely almost immediately after the wedding, Saul goes insane. First he tries to kill him, next he convinces David to marry his daughter. Next in chapter 19 he tries to kill him again. Jonathan tries to protect David by sneaking him out of the house. they run away…. and I will just let you read the love story for yourself in 1 Samuel 18 – 22. There is highs and lows and all kinds of drama…. I wasn’t kidding about it being ‘Broke Back Mountain’

The Tragic End.

1 samuel leaves us off at the battle of the Amalekites where King saul, and Jonathan are killed. in the next book, 2 Samuel a messenger comes to David and tells him of their death. In his distress David cries out a whole speach about saul and jonathon to his army ending it with a peculiar thing to say:

I am distressed for thee, my brother Jonathan: very pleasant hast thou been unto me: thy love to me was wonderful, passing the love of women. 2 Samuel 1:26

So the thing is. Gay weddings are perfectly scriptural. This thing about David and Jonathan, It’s not a new discussion – I think a lot of modern Christians think so, but it’s been considered common knowledge throughout history. Though in the Renaissance the clergy took it to mean david was clearly just a sinner… Which indeed he was in more ways then just being gay. David was a person who could not control his hormones, It got him in trouble with God on several occasions. So whether he was gay or just promiscuous I couldn’t tell you. I can tell you, that even he broke the law of Moses, and it was his faith in God that was what accounted him to favor with God.

What is this thing Marriage?

The same day Sadducees came to him, who say that there is no resurrection, and they asked him a question, saying, “Teacher, Moses said, ‘If a man dies having no children, his brother must marry the widow and raise up offspring for his brother.’ Now there were seven brothers among us. The first married and died, and having no offspring left his wife to his brother. So too the second and third, down to the seventh. After them all, the woman died. In the resurrection, therefore, of the seven, whose wife will she be? For they all had her.”

But Jesus answered them, “You are wrong, because you know neither the Scriptures nor the power of God. For in the resurrection they neither marry nor are given in marriage, but are like angels in heaven. And as for the resurrection of the dead, have you not read what was said to you by God: ‘I am the God of Abraham, and the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob’? He is not God of the dead, but of the living.”And when the crowd heard it, they were astonished at his teaching.  – Matthew 22: 23-33

The reason I give you this whole scene is because I want to emphasize context…. This is not a Gay issue, so much as an everybody issue. The Sadducees were questioning the resurrection of the dead, and they assume when someone is married on earth they are also married in heaven after they are dead…. In this case they are asking about a woman who has been married multiple times due to her multiple husbands dieing and she just keeps getting re married…. Well it a fair enough question really.

Jesus tells us it’s no big deal how often we marry on earth. It doesn’t carry over to the next life anyway (Resurrection to be specific)…. Essentially. Also we won’t be getting remarried in the resurrection either, nor will we  procreate. This is a key point on the whole marriage concept – it really is. It’s doubtful we will even have a gender when all is said and done. and yet I would be remissed to ignore the point of marriage as described in scripture.

1 Corinthians 7 talks about all the reasons for marriage and it begins with:

Now concerning the matters about which you wrote: “It is good for a man not to have sexual relations with a woman.” But because of the temptation to sexual immorality, each man should have his own wife and each woman her own husband. The husband should give to his wife her conjugal rights, and likewise the wife to her husband. For the wife does not have authority over her own body, but the husband does. Likewise the husband does not have authority over his own body, but the wife does. Do not deprive one another, except perhaps by agreement for a limited time, that you may devote yourselves to prayer; but then come together again, so that Satan may not tempt you because of your lack of self-control. – 1 Corinthians 7: 1-5

Now this whole thing about sex being the point of marriage goes on for about half the chapter actually. The main point of an earthly marriage isn’t so rosey lensed. It’s a means to succumb to our urges without committing sexual immorality. Its a way to keep our drives under control.

So with this expanded view, that’s often ignored, It makes a great deal of sense that when we are resurrected into christ’s kingdom – We will be made perfect, without these urges, and without marriage altogether. It just so happens that in the mean time were stuck with them.

In the case of Homosexuality, if the couple can remain monogamous, in the strictest of scripture. Sure gay people can get married why not?

Marriage is between a man and a woman.

Both of the mentioned scripture defines marriage as man and woman…. yet not really. We saw David and Jonathan married under all the other definitions of marriage. To be honest I think the writer (Paul and Matthew) is speaking in broad general terms to convey a much larger point. This isn’t a law or edict being passed in it’s context its just an explanation of an abstract points. So in that I don’t really see a conflict – however I will leave it to the reader to judge with that said.

So with that said

I have likely pissed everyone off with this run down. Excuse me for just telling it like it actually is according to scripture, to the very best of my knowledge. I could easily add on to this, but 4 controversies is enough for one day. 🙂 However, this article is not for the heterosexual audience. It’s meant for the gay guy out there struggling with his faith and scripture.

It is to you, I can only say I know this world will twist your understanding in all kinds of ways. You are a homosexual in a straight world, and with that there’s all kinds of political agendas out there that distort the facts of scripture. Trust no one, including myself – though I bear no agenda other then truth to the best of my ability. God gave you a brain, you had better use it and judge all things to the best of your ability with discernment. Fact check and reason for yourself, and let the spirit guide you in your soul searching. We are not exactly walking on thin ice here In my opinion, but it is my opinion. Love your spouse as best you can and I hope he/she loves you back. What is most important above all things, is your faith that God will always lead you’re understanding if you let him.

Wealth vs. Money

In regards to the term Capitalism – there is a HUGE misunderstanding on the concept of ‘wealth’. Infact real wealth can never be printed on paper – and money in itself is completely worthless. There is a huge difference between these 2 concepts of which I’d like to dispel.

Money is worthless

o-BURNING-MONEY-facebookMoney is the governments way of trying to create dependence on the state. By creating a society that runs entirely on it’s printed notes with an alleged value – the government then makes itself relevant on every exchange between individuals. The truth is we don’t need it- and whether it’s a $1 bill or a $100 – it’s not worth the paper it’s printed on. Infact under our current system, the printing of ‘money’ just creates debt for the very reason it’s worthless.

Money does not reproduce, it does not really increase or decrease in value as a $1 bill will always say $1. Money by itself does not produce anything at all, nor does it labor. What it does is simply act as a medium for exchanges to make the barter system a bit more fluid. This is seen many times in people who win the $100 million lottery, and later we read they become homeless in about 5 years or so. A person who has a ton of money can only become poor because they have no assets.

Commodity is Wealth

If I have a chicken farm, I have wealth because my chickens keep laying eggs, and people07-chickens-provide-fertilizer_1600 are always going to buy eggs. I can ask the consumer to pay for my eggs in money so that I can, in turn go to a milk farmer and exchange my money for his milk….. make sense?

Wealth is a persons assets. The commodity an individual produces for trade determines how rich he is – even though he may not have a lot of ‘money’, why does he really need it when he has chickens?  It is because he has chickens, he can always trade his eggs for anything he wants; milk, gold, money, silver, potatoes, clothes, etc etc. So materialistically speaking, money is not wealth at all – it’s just a product of wealth. If you want to become wealthy, accumulate assets that create commodities.

So my friends with that said, I conclude this simple analysis confident I have inspired you to go out and become more “Wealthy” rather than “Loaded with Money”. Of a truth nobody really needs money at all, its the most useless commodity out there.  Buy assets that produce or appreciate in value not junk, and you too will become rich 😀

I am not entirely with Trump…

Ok I said it, go ahead and shoot me.

I am pleased we don’t have Hillary, I am pleased that the Trump I saw during the Republican primaries is not the Trump I see now. Infact, everything he has done so far has been great, really really great…..

It’s just the fact, I’m not stupid.

I cant forget the mess of never having a policy position before and all the inconsistent promises he made during the Primary – other then the promise “I can change into anything I want”.

I cant help at notice, everything I like about Trump he has done already very early in his presidency, how much is left for him in the next 4-8 years?

mixed in with all this wonderful domestic policy – he manages to always work in growing the Military Industrial Complex… This talk of “Alt-Right” I find very laughable, because I know it’s just a new name for ‘Neocon’.

I also know everything Trump has done thus far will change with the next president. Executive order, and vetoing executive orders – is finiky buisness, there is no permanence.  I’m glad were not going to kill ourselves as a nation yet, but I’m just watching the Democrats becoming more radicalized before my very eyes. Just how radical they will be in the next 2 cycles, I have no idea. That’s what scares me most. I see very plainly what they have already become.

Needless to say….

I’m just not a populist person. I can not just go along with the herd.. There are days I wish I could just shut my brain down and blindly go along with the program…. but I cant.

I like trump, but I wasn’t born yesterday.

 

 

Growing up

One of the reasons I became christian, was a woman in California named Anita Fuentes. I have long since spoken out against her as a false prophet, but I am reminded of the fact she did indeed “Open My Eyes”.
I was talking to another christian whom started their walk in Christ from a very different angle. The United Church of Christ. This person today rejects every thing about this superficial universalist dribble, for many of similar reasons I rejected Anita Fuentes….

We learned better and We grew up.

We started with these people because at the time we needed them. We really didnt know anything, we thought we did and was willing to learn more. As we learned to read the bible for ourselves, as we saw certain inconsistencies, as we learned, we also learned better.

I guarantee that this will happen to all of you. If it doesn’t happen, then you are not growing at all.

So what I think I’m saying is, even bad doctrine can be a stepping stone – but it’s only just that, a stepping stone.

With that in mind…

I was looking over my blog, and some things I wrote about years ago. I realized there’s some things I use to believe that, I don’t really disagree with anymore I just have a more advanced understanding of it now… So perhaps I should delete it right?

Well, I won’t. The reason is, just because I’ve learned better doesn’t mean someone else hasn’t. My own blog and my own word is not scripture – it’s evangelism… It’s me talking to the internet. I myself am no exception to this rule. Someone can always just be using me as a stepping stone, and one day grow up themselves.

The only thing that matters is, salvation is in Christ alone through faith alone. This fact is evident in scripture alone. If anyone says something different, they are just blatantly lieing to you. I have on my blog never said anything different, and I never will on that point.